desperate788 wrote:If I get rid of a problematic work I will be happy.
That isn't how it works. For better things to start happening to you, you need to get happy first. Imagination is required for that.
I see you using your imagination against yourself. You've posted a string of things to be worried about, and so far nothing you've worried about has come to pass. All that happens is you go on feeling bad. Then the dealine for something bad to happen passes, and you immediately start worrying about the next thing.
Yes, if I had XYZ I would feel ABC. We all know that equation. As soon as we get XYZ we realise it didn't lead to ABC, or that ABC was very brief, so we look for something else that's missing. If I had PQR...
It's a mug's game, predicting happiness that depends on acquiring something or removing something from your future.
Looks to me that work is actually a very positive thing in your life. You turn it into a negative one by convincing yourself you only do it for the money, you're forced to do it, if you had a choice you wouldn't do it.
Then what? Then nothing. You'd still feel pessimistic, only now you can lie in bed all day telling yourself how worried you are about... everything.
Unless you die young, the time will come when you can no longer work. Then you'll realise how much it helped you to have structure to your days and weeks. It meant you had to get up and get dressed in the mornings, that you had to be with other people, that you had to use your mind for problem-solving.
I get happy sometimes not sad everytime but happiness may be fake.
Turn that one on its head, PLEASE! Your endless worries have been shown to be fake. Your happiness, your BLISS, lies underneath all that worrying. I gather a few beers gets the top layer off, and you start to feel better about life. That's REAL, and you don't need alcohol to access it. You can keep shovelling more worries on top, or you can start digging for gold. Your choice.