11 months weed free! In need of hope :(

[thegreatdane]

Whats up guys, im 11 months of weed. I was an addict for 3 years in my teenage years and since quitting i have been f***ed over by PAWS. I dont seem to get it in waves like many others. Its like a constant low. I do see some very very small improvement over these 11 months. I sometimes have a good day or two, but it happens maybe once a month or once every two months. I just keep praying that i will feel better soon, i dont understand why this is taking so long. Its breaking my heart, i just want to feel emotions again, i want to not have this huge social anxiety and this minor depression. So all in all, im 11 months in and i still feel bad, im starting to lose hope. Of course i will never touch weed again. I just hope and pray that one day very soon i will feel some real progress and not these minor baby steps one step forward and one step backwards all the time. Sorry for the negativity, im just done with feeling like this. BUT IM THANKFUL THAT IM 11 MONTHS CLEAN! Im proud of myself.

Any long term quitters that have gone what i am going through and are feeling much much better? Please comment below.

[InkChalk]

What's your lifestyle like right now?
Sleep, exercise, outdoors etc.?

[ashthewarrior7]

Hope is good, but a plan is better. You can't expect for your body and mind to get balanced sitting at home and waiting to recover. To become balanced you need to live balanced. That is eat fresh and good balanced food/diet. Exercise everyday morning. Improve your social life and go meet positive and progressive folks everyday. Meditate on mindfulness everyday. Cut out coffee, alcohol, teas, multivitamin tablets, supplements, smoking, porn from the life. Then only will your progress be noticeable. Otherwise it's a long and slow journey.

[thegreatdane]

My lifestyle right now is pretty good. Ive cut out porn, im hitting the gym 3 times a week, eating healthy and all that stuff. I notice when my lifestyle is good then i get some good days more often. And when my lifestyle is sh** i rarely even get them.

[ashthewarrior7]

Work on your social life too. That really helps!

[LondonScouse]

Exact same situation dude
Social anxiety
Inability to experiance emotions
Minor 'constantly low' depression

I don't think this is paws.

I think it's closely related to structural and subsequently functional changes in our brain which developed as a result of smoking heavily while the brain was still developing

[thegreatdane]

I believe our brains can bounce back LondonScouse, even tho it may take a while longer. We got to have hope! It is paws man

[ashthewarrior7]

If your brain is under developed then you won't be able to function or experience emotions and happiness even with weed. Even if you are under developed the brain has the ability to still develop and learn, it's slower but it still develops, that's why you can learn new languages and skills at any age although you do it better when young. Don't worry about it, it's obviously PAWS, it's withdrawals 101, others have gone through the same and came out better by staying clean. Life is tough, you gotta be tougher, that's about it.

[thegreatdane]

Thank you Ash! Ill never give up hope. I hope my second year of quitting will be much better