Should I just end it?

Postby DanielChung8 » Sun Apr 14, 2019 5:05 pm

Hello everyone! I'm 23 year's old(male) and I've been suicidal 6 years now. Allow me to elaborate my situation that I have to endure. I was born in Seoul, Korea and I left the country with the family when I was 6. As of now, I'm back into my home country since it's been about 17 years. Despite how it is my home country, the great food, and the people..I'm not liking it. My father was deported two years ago(I'm not going to get into that) and it's great seeing him getting an income/occupation after so many years but there are things that I just can't stand. When my family and I had came into the U.S for a better life/future, things started to go downhill unfortunately! What I can't believe is that they came into the country when my father's side of the family stated that it was alright for us to come and that things were going to workout eventually. Are you kidding me? I know for a FACT that they're not that naive/impulsive to begin with and they must had a plan to begin with especially when they're about to enter a country that they never set foot in, right? As you already know, I wasn't a citizen to begin with but atlease have the decency to get your child a green card from the beginning. If I had a child then I would do everything to get him/her one so that the child wouldn't have to suffer. It's so sad to begin with and especially seeing them lose or having to depend on to other family menbers as well? It's tragic but as sad to say but they had failed as parents from my perspective. The only one who is fortunate is my younger sibling(brother) because atlease he was born in the U.S and has a citizenship as well. Of course, the country is getting worse as the years progress but it's better than staying in Korea. Suffice to state that every country has a con but atlease they don't have the air pollution crisis like Korea for years. I miss the U.S and especially the clean air that I can breathe in. It's bad enough that I have to go serve in the military since it is mandatory but if you're going to force your citizens to go then atlease make their incomes higher. Lol, the income is a joke but I've already accepted that I have to go. I had really good memories back when I stayed in the U.S and especially highschool? If I had the opportunity to go back then I wouldn't but I have some good memories from back then. Vividly, I remember giving my family stress because of those times but hey? You live and learn from it, right? I was in the "cool"/stoner kids and in retrospect, I should have known better but the past is the past. I miss my brother as well and it's going to be awhile since we're going to see in person again. I hope he doesn't give up his U.S citizenship because from my perspective, he can have a future there and as sad as it is, he lacks his own language. My korean isn't at that level that I prefer(which is my fault to blame) but it's getting better from here. I miss my brother's game during his football/AAU season and his schoolball season as well. Despite his size, I never thought that his caliber would be at that level. Smfh, I know I'm getting off tangent here so you'll have to excuse me for that but if my life doesn't change and is stagnant then I have no choice but to end it. What is the point of living if your life doesn't improve because it's stagnant, right? Noone likes being stagnant at all. My parent's failed and I can't help but to think that when my father gives advice, its simple and cliche to the point that either he really thinks I'm that naive or just stupid/feeble minded from the beginning.
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Postby Richard@DecisionSkills » Mon Apr 15, 2019 6:42 am

DanielChung8 wrote: If I had the opportunity to go back then I wouldn't but I have some good memories from back then. Vividly, I remember giving my family stress because of those times but hey? You live and learn from it, right?

What is the point of living if your life doesn't improve because it's stagnant, right? No one likes being stagnant at all.


You live and learn from it right?

That is what you wrote. You live and learn. If you don’t like to be stagnant, live and learn not to be stagnant.
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Postby quietvoice » Mon Apr 15, 2019 4:01 pm

DanielChung8 wrote:Hello everyone! I'm 23 year's old(male) and I've been suicidal 6 years now.

Google wrote:su·i·cid·al ..... /ˌso͞oəˈsīdl/
adjective
- deeply unhappy or depressed and likely to commit suicide.
- relating to or likely to lead to suicide.

Something tells me that you're being melodramatic.

DanielChung8 wrote:As you already know, I wasn't a citizen to begin with but at lease have the decency to get your child a green card from the beginning. If I had a child then I would do everything to get him/her one so that the child wouldn't have to suffer.

Did your parents apply for U.S. lawful permanent residence for themselves?

DanielChung8 wrote:It's so sad to begin with and especially seeing them lose or having to depend on to other family menbers as well?
It's tragic but as sad to say but they had failed as parents from my perspective.

Every person is doing the best that they know how to do at each moment, though one may subsequently "live and learn" a different way of thinking and acting for use in similar future circumstances.

DanielChung8 wrote:Suffice to state that every country has a con but at least they don't have the air pollution crisis like Korea for years.
I miss the U.S and especially the clean air that I can breathe in.

Ah, clean air is a great reason to get yourself into another environment. What are you doing for yourself to move into cleaner air?

DanielChung8 wrote:It's bad enough that I have to go serve in the military since it is mandatory but if you're going to force your citizens to go then at least make their incomes higher.
Lol, the income is a joke but I've already accepted that I have to go.

Ugh. Authority is a dangerous superstition from which this world needs to awaken . . . 200-page pdf

DanielChung8 wrote:Smfh, I know I'm getting off tangent here so you'll have to excuse me for that but if my life doesn't change and is stagnant then I have no choice but to end it.
What is the point of living if your life doesn't improve because it's stagnant, right?
Noone likes being stagnant at all.

Yeah, I don't think you want to leave. You simply want a change in direction. What ideas can you come up with that would move you in a different direction? Take one of those ideas and go with it, until you get the idea that you want to follow a different idea. Make them ideas that help you feel really, really GOOD . . . Find a vision for yourself . . . Listen to uplifting audios or videos—of which there are almost literally a countless number of them freely available on this Internet through which you and I are connecting.

DanielChung8 wrote:My parent's failed and I can't help but to think that when my father gives advice, its simple and cliche to the point that either he really thinks I'm that naive or just stupid/feeble minded from the beginning.

Every person is doing the best that they know how to do at each moment. When your father gives such advice, do you follow up with some discussion?
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Postby James_Lee » Fri May 03, 2019 11:22 pm

No. You should not end it. Simple answer
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