80 days clean of weed

#75

Postby ashthewarrior7 » Wed Jul 31, 2019 2:57 pm

Nice to see you Alive and recovering Sparkle! please dont get disheartened when a bad wave hits you, okay?

Hey Jimbob, weren't you taking Niacin/Nicanamide? are you still on them or they stopped working?
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Postby JimBob8873 » Wed Jul 31, 2019 3:08 pm

It worked OKAY. It did help for a little while but I wanted to improve my diet rather than supplementing. I noticed just making sure I eat a well balanced diet and avoid caffeine and sugar really does make a big difference. I think the supplementing that I did do kind of reset my mind and now I am definitely not feeling as bad as I was.

For the first week or two of supplementing with B vitamins and Omega-3s I noticed a huge improvement but it wasn't something that would completely fix me. Eventually I wasn't seeing the same improvements but the anxiety I was feeling completely went away, now its very very mild, almost cant even feel any sort of anxiety. Pretty much the only emotional thing I am feeling is depression and some lack of pleasure. But thats pretty much it!
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Postby ashthewarrior7 » Wed Jul 31, 2019 5:08 pm

Wonderful! Keep up the good work man! Thanks for replying!
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Postby SparkleFly12 » Thu Aug 01, 2019 4:36 am

Jimbob,

Yeah I too am typically not too happy a person and when I was at day 120 like you it was a lot worse than normal. For me it let up a lot around day 140-150. Now I don’t feel too sad, not happy but I think this is what my normal was before all this started.
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Postby JimBob8873 » Thu Aug 01, 2019 2:14 pm

Of course after I got home from work yesterday I was, and still am, super depressed. I just feel like garbage! No motivation what so ever, really really down, fell asleep at 7PM slept for a little while then couldnt fall back asleep till probably around 1AM...

I think we are dealing with similar feelings, except I dont really have any physical ailments but our emotional cycles are very close. Hopefully this lets up soon as I want to get back into working out, just havent had the energy at all!

Hope you are doing well today. Thank you for replying.
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Postby BullFrog » Thu Aug 01, 2019 9:15 pm

Hey JimBob,

For the sake of cataloging information, can you tell me how long you took niacin (or niacinamide) and how many milligrams a day and how often during the day? And when you said it "helped for a little while", in what way did it help?

I have only started a mere 100mg a day just to get used to the flush. Will try 200mg tomorrow and begin my way up to 1500mg a day and see what happens.
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Postby JimBob8873 » Thu Aug 01, 2019 10:09 pm

I took Niacinamide, about 500mg per meal so 1500 a day. plus a b complex vitamin that also contained an extra 500mg of Niacinamide. I did this for about 2 maybe 3 weeks and had improvements in my mood and sense of well being. After quitting that I felt pretty good for a week or two then started to get very tired all day and now its really fatigued w/ moderate to severe depression. My moods really do shift quickly, as of probably an hour to 30 minutes ago, I dont feel so depressed. Still really tired like I could crawl in bed and sleep the rest of the day away.
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Postby SparkleFly12 » Fri Aug 02, 2019 10:54 pm

And just like that, the headache and facial pressure comes back. The past 3 days have been bad for the headache, like month 3-4 all over again.

I guess the only good thing is no other symptoms got worse. little to no anxiety or depression, and my muscles are not very sore; and libido didn’t drop lower than last week. Silver lining I guess.

Cheers all, hope you’re not having as rough a few days.
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Postby SparkleFly12 » Sat Aug 17, 2019 5:56 pm

Today is 6 months. 180 days. Posting back here to help any others out there that are struggling through weed-induced PAWS. This forum helped me understand the gravity of my situation and helped me heal; I hope my posts can help someone else out there. It will be a while before medical science catches up to this forum; since weed is still illegal in most countries around the world.

I am starting to feel better; and a few days a week I get a good 6 hours of feeling completely normal. My symptoms seem to come in the afternoon/evening, and in the mornings I often feel okay.

Symptoms are now:
-poor sleep, sleep is a bit better than a month ago but I still wake up multiple times during the night. If im lucky I can get 7 hours but constantly feel tired.
-low libido, it is slowly increasing but still low. It seems like it may be related to the poor sleep as well. Still have intermittent ED but it is marginally better than before. For me, this is the symptom that is taking the longest to heal.
-Headache around eyes; is now mild 3/10 at the worst (evenings)
-Discomfort/swelling lymph nodes, much milder than before 3/10 at the worst (evenings)
-Anxiety, mild. Can still feel pressure in my chest occasionally but I can usually ignore it
-Muscle aches/soreness, mild
-All negative stimulus cause a disproportionate response in my body. Dehydrated? Severe headache. One drink? Hangover. Eat something bad? bad headache.

Today, I feel pretty bad but Im fairly certain its unrelated to PAWS. My last symptom I listed is now the worst of them: negative stimuli have a much worse effect (with PAWS) than they would otherwise have; I ate some food that didnt digest well and Im really out of it today. Usually this doesnt affect me too much; just makes me sleep a bit worse but this is pretty bad.

Overall feeling a lot better than a month ago though. My symptoms didnt really get any better for a month and a half, but they finally did a week ago. I sure hope they get better in another 1.5 months. Im going on a long trip then and it would be so so great if I didnt have PAWS. When I quit 6 months ago, I thought I would for sure feel better by the time this trip came around but it looks like that may or may not be the case.

Its been a long long ride for me...but I am finally through the worst. I first quit over a year ago, went through PAWS for a month and a half before smoking a lot again (over 12 days); PAWS reset, then I quit for 3 months before taking up smoking again (on and off for 2 months).

PAWS reset, and here I am 6 months later; finally finally in what I hope is the final stretch of PAWS. Its been a really rough, sh** year dealing with this. I know this may be controversial here; but I do want to smoke again once Im through PAWS. I have actually smoked once recently; after a really rough week. the trick is being able to control it; and not smoking a lot. Now that I know the negatives of smoking a lot (PAWS), I have every incentive to not overdo it. Back when I used to decide whether or not to smoke, I would literally say "Whats the downside of smoking...?" and that led me to smoke more and more. Ive learned the answer to that question over the past year and now treat weed like alcohol: fun, but with negative repercussions if overused. If it turns out that I cant control myself...then Ill probably be back here for another year; and at that time Ill quit for good.

Hope you are all doing better yourselves. Life is finally starting to not "hurt" anymore. Ive got big plans for the rest of the year and Im so glad to be PAWS free to experience them.

Cheers all,
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#84

Postby ashthewarrior7 » Sat Aug 17, 2019 6:12 pm

if you aren't quitting weed for good then why don't you use the weaning or tapering off technique instead of quitting cold turkey?
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Postby SparkleFly12 » Sat Aug 17, 2019 6:34 pm

Three reasons.

First, Because I want to get used to a lifestyle without any weed. I want my normal to be not smoking at all, and only smoking very occasionally. If I taper off, it’s a lot harder to get to that point.

Second, I want to make sure I am through PAWS which is hard to do if I am allowing myself to smoke with any regularity.

Thirdly, to prove to myself that I can live without weed. Weed helps me relax, but I don’t want to rely on it. I want to go months at a time without smoking to prove to myself that I am capable of dealing with life without relying on weed to destress.

I guess you can say that I quit cold turkey as a “shock” to change my lifestyle.
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Postby zzzz » Fri Aug 30, 2019 2:54 pm

Hey @SparkleFly12

Its been me as of today 51 days ive been clean of weed for about 6 months of almost daily usage allthough my mental state is getting better i still have anixety and abit of depression

But my main problem like your is low libido and ed i am only 22 turning 23.

But my first experience of ed was on the first night i quit smoking thc. (I I used vape thc).

The problem i have is that i get weak erections i can only get erections if i am sitting down and if i stand up lose it straight away. Not only that i only get erections through physical simulation. I can masturbate but with weak erections.

What i want to ask is this normal. And is this what you experience. And how did your erections improve.
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Postby JimBob8873 » Fri Aug 30, 2019 5:43 pm

@zzzz this is totally normal, your body is still going through major changes and Low Libido is a symptom. I am at about 5 months and RARELY want to have sex or even feel in the mood at all. Its actually very common for people in our situation. It will come back eventually!

I feel bad for my girlfriend because we used to have sex pretty much daily, now I hardly want to, its about once or twice every two weeks. kind of depends on how I am feeling.
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Postby zzzz » Fri Aug 30, 2019 5:50 pm

Hey @JimBob8873

Thanks for that youve put my mind at peace thats only physical symptom i am having with withdrawal symptom but now i am having really bad stomach pain kindey pain and back pain
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Postby SparkleFly12 » Fri Aug 30, 2019 10:23 pm

Yeah @zzzz dont worry, it takes a while. The messed up thing is that weed withdrawal seems to affect sex drive; not just your ability to get hard. I needed visual stimulation (porn) plus my trusty hand to get hard; but even then I was never was 100% hard (even though porn is extremely stimulating to me). Orgasming wasnt that great. And I couldnt get it up with my GF.

I had virtually no sex drive for 5 months, and it finally started creeping back slowly in the 6th month. I started to notice little things; like my eyes are drawn to attractive women (something I havent felt in many many months!). Last week at the 6.5mo mark was I finally able to have sex with my gf. I have tried viagra and it works, but doesnt make sex the same as it used to be; it just makes it possible. It was uninteresting, and I spend the whole time waiting for it to be over.

Now I have some days where I feel normal libido and others where I feel very low (and have ED). Its a roller coaster but things did finally start to improve (slowly) for me at 6mo. Hoping in the next month Ill have more days where I am normal than others.

@JimBob yeah, same here. Me and my gf used to have sex almost daily...now its hardly weekly and even then Im still not into it. cant wait for this to be over.
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