Hey guys,
I kinda like posting here time to time, as it keeps a track of what progress/falls i've taken.
I've learnt that smoking weed is part of an 'emotional response'. Towards stressful times. Went through a break-up. And Went down another month of smoking.
I had almost had 8 months.
Have to say, i fell apart well-before i smoked weed in May. Probably a month before, my health and diet had started to dwindle. I become distracted and restless, and was playing games, stopped working out etc... I just needed to escape for a while.
In a way i needed it. I think i accepted it as that, and didn't give up or feel defeated, so it wasn't TOO hard dropping the ganj again. (Although took a couple of tries).
The first step was cleaning my perephenalia, and putting it back in the attic.
I no longer throw glass out. Because if i relapse again, i just end up wasting more money buying glass all over again.
Anyhow. 10 days clean. Sleeping has been tough, and also its hot summer, so that doesn't help much either. But i'm feeling great, and being very productive.
I still consider my quit since September a continuous success (despite 2 relapses, totalling 4 weeks) . Because i never forgot about my goal in the long-run.
While i was smoking, i was bored of playing games, and missed reading, and eating properly.
I'm still learning who i am without weed in my life. And developing the life i want to have sober. I also downloaded an app that keeps track of my days clean, which i look at occasionally.
Some things i did different even when i was smoking for those few weeks, was buy smaller quantities. So i had more opportunities to run out of green any more, and test my resilience, and reflect on my habit and keep my sh** together.
I've also been honest with my family, and made them aware of my goals in life and to quit. They've been supportive, and also helped shined light on how they seen me as being successful this whole time, even while i've smoked pot along the way.
I've registered for some courses, and found a new place to rent closer to the city.
So this move will signify some major changes from a transitionary period in my life.
Hope all is well. And if anybody feels like responding; i'd love to hear from you.
-Ink