Hi, 2.5 years

Postby Requimfordream » Wed Jul 03, 2019 5:44 pm

After a long time I'm here again posting about my journey, at his time this is the only place I have to interact, I don't know if I should still posting here or I should move to the depression or anxiety forum. it has been 2 years and 6 month since I stop weed and now I wondering if I did really have a underlaying condition of depression and anxiety because this is a long time and I still f@ck up!!.
I was put on Zolof for 1 1/2 year at 25 mg per day and it did not do much, I remember having just a few days feeling normal... If you go to search on my past posting you will read what I have been through".
I'm now trying supplements for the last 6 month and it seems to help at one point, but last week I had an allergy attack that send my depression and anxiety to square one, I felt horrible, I could not sleep, I felt like I was floating in the air with a brain flog, I got very nervous and scared again, I don't know if it was an interaction with the allergy medication and the supplements, I'm still nervous and scare, still have to take some sleeping pills!! I really don't want to go to the doctor again and get SSRI and scared to still feel like this, I don't want this in my life... I'm working out a couple of days per week but it actually seems to make things worse.
I will try to stay strong and if I don't get better, I think I will try the CBD OIL DROPS " what can you guys tell me about CBD? I need an advice, please help...
"I still trying to figured out what happened to me that day in December 2016, after a week of not smoking the withdraw hast hitting me very hard I DIDN'T REALISED IT WAS THAT!! Then I called the dealer to buy some weed, I remember I was frustrated and I smoked the weed as ussually then I went to the computer and watch porn since I was addicted to porn too and finished my bussiness with my hand.. you know!... After that I remember I went to lay in bed for a nap since I haven't sleep well for the last week, suddenly my head went crazy, I got up, I felt horrible feelings that I never experienced before, I don't wish this to my worse enemy; I felt like I was in a parallel world, I was scary, I felt so small and stupid, worthless. dp, dr, panic attack? I don't know what it was, I cried, I was walking in circles and I think this f@ck my brain for good, that was the beginning of this hell now is 2.5 years, after that I felt horrible for the next month, I lost 30 pounds, electric shots all over my body, crazy dreaming and sleepless nights, I went to psych warm and they didn't help a lot they just sent me home with an activan pill, then I was put in Zoloft and that made me numb, my father passed 1.5 years ago and I was numb, I'm still having a hard time to get out of bed since my sleep is horrible, a lot of dreaming and sometime I have to take sleep medicine but I still get out go to the gym in a brain fog and tired, I go to do ride sharing to make some money, I recently got a new job in a restaurant as a bartender and server but it make me so stress out that I'm thinking to quit, I though I could handle it, but I think that I'm not, my hands are shaking with the tray of drinks and the customer noticed that, I feel I can't do this no more, my poor mom its widow now, one of my brother committed suicided back in 2012, she does not know about my mental issues neither my sibling they live far from me, its just so difficult to accept that I have a mental problem and I can't handle it... I know I will never harm my self, but it just make me so scary to lost my mind and get crazy and hospitalized..
For all you guys in this journey I wish you get to the other side safe and in peace, its no easy... and If you have any advised for me please let me know... GODD LUCK
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Postby Db82 » Wed Jul 03, 2019 6:18 pm

Brother I think Zoloft does that to you honestly try to wean off and do natural supplements like amino acids and fish oil ....there is no easy way out only to ride it out and take no pills...if you are little crazy it's ok better than being numb I strongly advise no medication cause it's worse for you than thc. Cbd is good option and I don't know after few month maybe u could start microdosing of cannabis if it helps it's better than pills anyway. Keep strong and experiment bro but u should be free from thc now only problem u have u jumped too early on depression medicine. I really strongly suggest l tyrosin for depression but it's not miracle. One day at a time bro you will get better for sure. Just get off damn chemistry for sure. God bless and stay strong and positive!
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Postby Requimfordream » Wed Jul 03, 2019 6:50 pm

Bro I hope you are right, I started the zolof 2 weeks after my attack, but i'm off of them since last nov. I hope you are right that I jumped to early in the medicine but my doctor saw me so bad that he did his job, Im staying strong and i don't want to go to the doctor to get those antidepressants...
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Postby Db82 » Wed Jul 03, 2019 7:00 pm

I'm sure bro you had problem with weed and now you have problem with antidepressant medicine let your brain be free for six months. Get sunshine exercise push yourself and if you feel bad so what just keep trying to stay natural brain chemistry all f***ed up give it some time and healthy alternatives like people did 50 years ago before all this medicine started to fuel their budget. Doctors are not really helping they just push medicine cause it's easy for them. Find alternatives man and don't worry too much u will be ok.
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Postby quietvoice » Wed Jul 03, 2019 7:15 pm

Db82 wrote: Find alternatives man and don't worry too much u will be ok.

Visit John Rose's YouTube channel and learn about taking a Solid Food Vacation . . . you'll be in for a treat!
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Postby Db82 » Wed Jul 03, 2019 7:40 pm

Thanks brother that's all we need get back to roots juicer is perfect solution rod beets carrots ginger apple honey and loaf up on sunshine walking bare foot on grass. We loose so much on this artificial sh** and concrete
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Postby thegreatdane » Wed Jul 03, 2019 10:33 pm

Fasting, meditation, Nofap(most importantly, and exercise. I would advice you to stop looking for supplements and all this. Do what is natural. How we are supposed to live.
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Postby Db82 » Thu Jul 04, 2019 11:47 am

U are a great example great Danish I don't think you are doing too good to give worthy advice but it's your life. Food you buy is not nutritional like it used to be less than 50% nutrition value as to 30 years ago, meat unhealthy since you live in Denmark u know how unhealthy pork is there and how they are grown, chicken and so on, vegetables fruit sprayed and inside no sunshine no real value to it. Sun is main thing, we feed on sun, that's why you have to add vitamins to superboost ur body and brain, like vitamin d which I think you need since u see sun maybe 3 month of the year, even that ,vitamin b12, all b complex, and amino acids. Raise that missing value we need from food, years of marijuana smoking and unhealthy food depleted our bodies. Thats all natural buddy, never ever ssri medicine and all that chemistry it's unnatural. Supplements or food additives it's not bad for you I don't understand why you think it's bad. Sex is also very good,having loving person kissing touching it all helps your brain produce more natural feel good chemicals. Addiction is not good and some people are addicted to feel bad and cry about it for years.
Good luck to everyone!
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Postby Head in loud » Thu Jul 04, 2019 12:15 pm

I had similar experience, I had a really bad rage and it scared the hell out of me so I quit cold turkey and in a day it hit me. I had no idea what it was, I thought I was going crazy. I went to doctor and he give me med for anxiety and bipolar medication. My doctor keep insisting that weed withdrawal symptoms will not last more then 14 days. The next day i found this forum and after reading posts made me realize how ill informed the doctor was. I throw away the medications. Didn’t even take the anxiety med.
I think you didn’t give your brain any time to recover by substituting weed with antiDP medication. You mention last you took AntiDP was Nov so you are clean since Nov. In my opinion you have the typical addict mentality—looking for magic cure or magic pill to feel better. I think we all have to put the time for our brain to learn how to balance it’s chemicals. We have abused it with THC so much that it will take years for it to be normal again. I would not suggest CDB oil. I’m sorry but you have to be baptized by fire, in 10000000% sure you are able and strong and can and will kick PAW butt. Make sure to exercise and take supplement special magnesium. Good luck brother. Never forget you are strong and able. Make sure to reads thread about the guy that took him 3 years to overcome PAW.
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Postby thegreatdane » Thu Jul 04, 2019 12:41 pm

Db82

I was giving him scientific advice to speed up recovery. Why are you talking about Denmark? I dont eat pork. We have some of the best quality meat and highest quality nutrition in the world. And we see the sun much more than 3 times a year lol. Marijuana PAWS is nothing more than Dopamine and serotonin rebalancing itself in the brain and that can take a whole lot of time. Oh and when did i say something about sex being bad? I said to pracitce Nofap. Sitting at home watching porn and jacking off damages your brain to a large degree just as weed addiction does. They compared the brain of a Porn addict to a heroine addict and they looked the same in terms of neurologic balance. Please dont speak about something you know nothing off. What i was saying to OP was that spending lots of money on supplements wont get you very far, because with a balanced diet and vitamin supplement only your brain has what it needs to rebuild itself. Use supplements as l tyrosine who messes up your natural dopamine producition and it will only prolong your PAWS.

All the best.
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Postby Head in loud » Thu Jul 04, 2019 12:48 pm

I couldn’t agree more thegreatdane, we all as typical addict look for magic pill to ease our pain but there is no none.
Do you care to share your research about porn addiction?
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Postby thegreatdane » Thu Jul 04, 2019 1:34 pm

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Hey man, you can try and research Nofap on Reddit for more information. There is 400.000 people who have stopped porn and have amazing benefits because the brain is no longer being floated with dopamine. I myself did go through intense withdrawals from porn alone. It is poision to our brain. I wish our society would have more focus on it, but i guess the porn industry is so big that they wont allow it no matter what. No easy fix who feels amazing(jacking off to porn) comes without a consquence, just as weed addiction, just as other unnatural high rewarding actions. But yeah try and research your way around.
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Postby Db82 » Thu Jul 04, 2019 4:18 pm

I live in Sweden Malmö IF you want to meet we can..smoked weed for probably around 20 years almost as old as you are. Grew up on a farm in South Europe raised chicken ducks pigs goat and goat milk is best we had our own vegetables and so on, was very happy with that life. I moved to Usa lived there 11 years as refugee from war I never had any problems with anything till I moved to Scandinavia now here since 2012. From my experience g not Reddit info and stuff on internet, lack of sunshine here is main problem with people addicted or not, food is not nutritional u go to store u see the meat vegetables but where they come from tomatoes can stand by for few months and not rot meat colored and so on, media lies to us kid. Kids here never seen chicken in person or any other farm anima, big max McDonald' and internet is all they know. I visited Kristiania many times I'm sure u know about it in Copenhagen weed is not like it used to be it's strong and artificial like someone said it's very dark and scary now also grown under lights no sunshine high thc low cbd. People here are not friendly at all, lack of socilalazing and just living in apartment next to tv tablet and so on is not healthy. many people exercise and that's good. I overcame my addiction and all the problems that goes along with it. Since 2015 I tried with no supplements to get off of it and almost went nuts could not handle it. I'm glad I didn't try ssri Zoloft was prescribed and Xanax but I knew better. Slowly but surely I find right solution for me and now 6 months later I'm doing good. Sorry to offend you but reading your post u seem to struggle a lot and pls don't give misinformation to people who could benefit from. Which benefits you notice from stuff u doing for 18 months. Sorry just trying to help someone from my own experience. Keep on trucking you Will find what suits you best . If it's nofap for five years u never know maybe it falls off. Just live life and supplement with whatever is missing I found supplements to be great help and God also. Thanks and sorry if I offend anyone.
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Postby thegreatdane » Thu Jul 04, 2019 4:59 pm

Db82

We are clearly not even on the same page in this discussion. All the best in your recovery!
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Postby Db82 » Thu Jul 04, 2019 5:22 pm

Trying to help someone in best way possible. I guess I missed it. I should cry and talk how bad I feel and how depressed I am. Good luck to you with recovery I'm recovered from weed paws I hope, even though I will give it 2 years for full recovery.
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