i am in strange situation

Postby laureat » Thu Jul 25, 2019 6:10 am

in 2016 is when it all started

i remember my x argument/fight with me for no reason, and she was doing strange things like what? such as putting password on her cell, getting late at home from job
she was forcing me do things i was uncomfortable with and she even challenged me with my 2 years daughter, taking her at hospital for visits that she didn"t need , so i was in so much pressure from her

after 6 month of family abuse she did she ran away from us ( me&daughter) and guess she was with someone else which i was guessing

i did not take that easy i was in real panic but strange things was happening ; her parents was calling and telling me she is using drugs don't let her see the daughter,

i visited a psychiatrist and told him some of my story and me being paranoid i even believed someone was trying to kill me

he prescribed me: respiridon 1mg, escitalopram 20mg, alprazolam

i did not trust the drugs i was doing my best to find relaxation and i was planning to quit the drugs and find my way back where i used to be

the problem is that strange things did not stop happening to me and i don't think i am being paranoid this time

there is a strange way of how ppl have treated me these last years;

i have married with a woman i trusted but she never stopped arguments/fights but its not just her, it is a strange way of how everyone i know treated me and i did not even have where to confess

they have used tactical ways to make me feel paranoid, confused, threatened

i feel like i have been totally brainwashed i could not even speak my mind for two months all i was ever doing is being ALERTED on what's next

i feel like i have been abused to the zombie state of mind , frustrated as there can be no more

i have quit taking drugs i don't trust my own ppl anymore they have gone too far i dont even trust myself to go for a walk which i never had a problem with
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Postby Richard@DecisionSkills » Thu Jul 25, 2019 1:58 pm

The strange situation is only resolved by finding a person you allow yourself to trust. Until that happens, you will not progress.

If you can’t trust anyone, you will either (1) struggle in isolation or (2) society will step in and confine you.
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Postby laureat » Thu Jul 25, 2019 9:49 pm

thanks the replay Richards
I am really trying to be reasonable and trust people but there is a problem with that, i feel stabbed in the back from everyone i trusted

i don't know what they did to me but that was no paranoia it was real as fck

- i had some kind of inner strokes
- 2 months i could not even speak or cry because of that
- i could not even think
- doctor said to go with 2 mg respiridon
- my mind was 100% blocked
- i have lost my visual ability to focus on things the way i did before

to me that was something similar to exorcism what they did to me
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Postby laureat » Sat Jul 27, 2019 3:41 am

they are using tactical ways to frustrate me, to confuse me, to threaten me

this morning 05:00 i made a caffe for myself and try to enjoy but few seconds later my wife made another caffe for me without me even asking for it if i wanted another? WOW

OK now i understand that doesn't sound like too much of a problem on its own... i know... but i got billion sh*t like that which has frustrated me and ask myself why are they doing this to me?

when they see me eat, they ask me if i want food
when they see me drink, they ask if i want a drink
when they see me go out, they ask if i want to go out

i am so frustrated i cannot handle anymore
and i have asked so many times to stop these kind of crazy games with me but they never did
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Postby Richard@DecisionSkills » Sat Jul 27, 2019 3:52 am

Posting in here in a forum will do nothing to help you.

Find someone in your real life that you can trust to help you.
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Postby laureat » Sat Jul 27, 2019 6:20 am

i did i asked for help from all ppl i trust and i even was at the hospital-psichiatry

every time i did they made me regret it
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Postby Richard@DecisionSkills » Sat Jul 27, 2019 6:46 am

laureat wrote:i did i asked for help from all ppl i trust and i even was at the hospital-psichiatry...every time i did they made me regret it


Well, posting in a forum isn’t going to change a single thing.

Again, find someone in your actual life to trust...or return to the hospital. Those are your options.
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