by Candid » Mon Mar 30, 2020 6:47 am
I'm surprised to hear Turkey isn't already in lockdown.
I wonder what happened at that time when you began to suffer at school, and I wonder why you link it to your father. Since your only sibling is your sister, it would have been natural for your father to take great pride in his son's progress through life.
Have you thought of a reason why your father might have wanted you to suffer?
Now he's gone, is it possible you could throw off whatever curse he may have put on you?
How about you remember the earlier you, the kinds of things you were able to do? You could write in detail what you remember from school, during the time when you had high grades and were considered one of the top students.
Sexual desire is absolutely normal, even in young children. I don't understand why you experienced it as a bad thing.
Stay safe, desperate.