22 months paws update

Postby thegreatdane » Tue Nov 26, 2019 9:46 am

Been a while since i did an update, so here it is.
I still somehow suffer from PAWS. I dont know if its some past emotions that has come into play or if its really just is all chemical. I have also quit a major porn addiction so that could be why it takes so long to heal. One thing for sure is i felt a lot better before i started smoking weed so hopefully i can get back to that place in time. The main problem is my social skills and personality(social anxiety). I felt like weed really took my social skills away and when i quit they were just gone, have anyone else delt with this? Besides social anxiety my anxiety is better than it was in the start. Depression also a little bit better. But the self confidence thing is the worst. I have tried everything form going out of my comfort zone to therapy but nothing helps. I truly believe it is something i just have to GO THROUGH, could be old trapped energy or could be brain still rewiring. I think the only solution is to just keep staying clear of porn and weed and just hope and pray i can get to be happy one day. The reason i think its still paws is that i get waves sometimes(really long ones) and then i can have some days where i feel a tiny bit better, and some days i feel really bad. Also everytime i quit weed in the past i would have a pink cloud effect before PAWS hit where i would feel really really good. So that gives me hope that its simply just part of the healing process! Let me know your thoughts. I will always keep fighting!! And as i have said before, i WILL be a sucess story and i WILL make a post when it happens so i can help all of you struggling with long term PAWS.
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Postby biohack9 » Tue Nov 26, 2019 3:38 pm

Wow, you're a long time along the way to recovery, so congrats are in order for sure. Did you quit the porn 22 month ago at the same time as weed?

I'm only 2 months in, and have alternated between some euphoria/feeling good, and now mainly depression. I know I have a long road ahead, but some of these long term stories are very disheartening.
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Postby thegreatdane » Thu Nov 28, 2019 7:36 am

I have been a little bit off and on porn for a couple years, but now i have been totally clean for like 6 months. Yeah i know its not fun to read those stories with people struggling after years. I always feared that i would be one of them and it ended up happening :(. Its litterally heartbreaking.
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Postby thegreatdane » Fri Nov 29, 2019 2:13 am

Mods please ban this Rixton guy.
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Postby SparkleFly12 » Fri Nov 29, 2019 2:42 am

Report him with the (!) anove his post...I already did
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Postby Cthompson21 » Fri Nov 29, 2019 5:19 pm

Thanks for the update GreatDane. I'm fighting alongside you. Still struggling. But perservering.
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