Morning did not go well.

Postby RosaD » Tue Dec 10, 2019 8:50 pm

Hello Everyone

I have been living an isolated lifestyle for the last 23 years. It is shameful to admit. But, for the last several mornings, I have planned to get up in the morning, and attend a live support group. The night before, I get my clothes ready. I go to bed early. Even after a good night's sleep, the buzz of the alarm causes a panic attack. I get up. Shut off the alarm. Then get back into bed.

Mornings are hard for me. When I was a child, my mother used the mornings to at rage at my younger bother and I. The oldest and youngest sibling were safe. The bother under me (lost child) did not seem to understand that our mother hated us. He would grab his clothes and walk pass her waiting fist. If she did not hit him, she would berate him. It was dealer's choice. I never understood, why he did not understand that she was not safe.

Those mornings happened forty years ago. From time to time, the flashbacks of those mornings come back, and I can't get up. I am an empath. I always knew to stay clear of her, and could avoid crossing her path. The problem is, I avoid everyone. My situation passed pathological years ago.

I signed on to ask if anyone else had experiences like this? If so, how do you cope?
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Postby Richard@DecisionSkills » Tue Dec 10, 2019 9:49 pm

Connect with others in the support group or some alternate group or organization. Have one of them come pick you up.

In other words, the idea that it is the morning alarm can be circumvented by arranging for social contact at other times of the day.

And of course you should not engage in online discussions. You should disconnect from the Internet as it is a crutch that keeps you isolated.
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