Fat to Skinny -- But, Still Riddled with Anxiety

Postby RosaD » Wed Dec 11, 2019 5:42 pm

Hello Everyone

In days of old, my life revolved around the television, my bedroom, and a plate. However, food was my god. I ate over anything imaginable. Looking back, I loved sweets -- anything with lots of sugar, fat, and floury goodness. I thought that the source of my problems were my inability to stop eating. I thought that once I stopped eating, and lost weight that naturally, I would shut off the television and leave my bedroom. Two hundred and seventeen pounds later, and I am still inside my room.

So I gave up the TV -- I donated my televisions to the Salvation Army five years ago. But, I still stayed in the house. I had Netflix on my computers, so last year I canceled my subscription. But, I am still inside my home. So, I tried online pen pals, support groups, and last week, I joined this forum. I am still inside my home.

I looked at some videos about agoraphobia, social anxiety, and social avoidance. Of the three, I would "self diagnose" with social avoidance. The longer I stay isolated the worst it gets. Moreover, it is getting harder to maintain my inner life inside my home. My appliances require repair. I can afford to have them replaced or repaired, but don't want to engage with anyone to make it happen.

They say that people like me have dysregulated brains -- that my brain was damaged as a result of long term abuse. They are calling it C-PTSD. I am starting to believe that is the truth.

Richard to answer your post -- I spend most of my days being afraid. Sad, but true.

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Postby Richard@DecisionSkills » Wed Dec 11, 2019 8:33 pm

RosaD wrote:Richard to answer your post -- I spend most of my days being afraid. Sad, but true.


Thanks for the reply Rosa, but you do realize that you didn’t answer my post?

I asked what are your current crutches that keep you isolated? I did not ask about your underlying emotional state.

Let me rephrase. You explained that eating was a crutch, then TV, then Netflix....

Now you have replaced it with the Internet and this forum...which I have advised and continue to advise you to reconsider. Replacing one crutch for another is not healthy.

The positive is that you have previously removed crutches that keep you isolated. The negative is that you just keep replacing, substituting one crutch for another.

You need to seek real world professional therapy. You need to get off the Internet.
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Postby RosaD » Thu Dec 12, 2019 3:51 pm

Hi Richard

Thank you for your reply.

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Postby CandyApples » Wed Mar 04, 2020 2:16 am

Hi Rosa- ok so you lost the 200 and something pounds, but are you still considered over weight? some people at the 600 pd mark, losing 200 is great but 400 is still over weight. Just wondering.

Second, losing weight while its great to see the numbers on the scale drop, the skin just sags and hangs, its a double edge sword for people. Are you experiencing this?

Last, your years and reasonings back in the day to where your life was home, food and tv....weight being shed, would not just go away. Those reasons need to be addressed. Are you worried that people still see the old you? Do you feel a sense of purpose? Do you find certain parts of the day or night easier to function than others? Do you have any medical issues that may hinder your venturing out? Just want start there and ask.
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Postby izzy95 » Mon Apr 13, 2020 3:21 pm

I'm very skinny because I don't eat a lot because of anxiety...
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