my journey to freedom from weed - day 4 onwards

Postby donewithdope » Tue Dec 31, 2019 10:44 am

day 4 no weed. I got some weed as a gift. I had no desire to smoke it.
I gave it back.
it's also day 2 off caffeine, which had been a worse problem for me than pot. I decided it was a good time to leave caffeine since I vomited after half my morning cup yesterday.
headache all night, woke up feeling weak and headache subsiding.
no appetite, eating bit of fruit here and there.
decided to stop taking DMSO as it was making the detox far too rapid and making me feel awful.
feel useless to my family, feel suicidal at times, the usual depression coming back.
i self-medicated with pot for years.
no structure in my day as I have time off work and visitors. so i dont really know what to do with myself.
called my partner and am really sad cos I feel it's going to end soon. we dont live together.
i know things will get better and that I'll manage as I've been thru worse.
it just hurts.
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#1

Postby HDog455 » Tue Dec 31, 2019 2:59 pm

I’m really sorry that you’re hurting but it’s a good hurt because you are beating this thing. You’re well on your way to a big victory and killing off your worst enemy.

Knocking back that gift was a huge milestone - not to be underestimated!
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Postby donewithdope » Tue Dec 31, 2019 9:56 pm

:D
Thanks for the encouragement HD, it really helps.
Feeling much better. Spending the evening with friends who are drinking and smoking. And Im clean and still enjoying the company. Been years since something like this occurred for me. A small or not so small natural high. And I know it'll get better and better.
The success stories on here are a huge help.
Happy and healthy 2020 - clean and free. No longer a slave to this substance. Or to caffeine.
Caffeine almost daily since age 12. No one stopped me. No one was aware of the dangers to a developing child.
Enjoying the detox now. Feeling pain in liver area, weakness, heart palpitations. But all mild compared to day 3.
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#3

Postby donewithdope » Tue Dec 31, 2019 9:58 pm

Enjoying the detox now cos Im curious as to whatll all happen in my body and mind and heart. I know things will go up and down but right now Im up and enjoying it.
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#4

Postby donewithdope » Wed Jan 01, 2020 12:39 pm

Day 5:
Interrupted sleep, itchy skin
Anhedonia, low mood
No morning coffee
Remember why i self medicated with MJ all these years
Slight anxiety
Watched my breath for 10 mins which helped with mood
Low appetite
Insecure, dont feel understood, angry at loved ones
Nothing to say
My introverted nature coming out more
Not excited about anything
Patience
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Postby HDog455 » Wed Jan 01, 2020 8:13 pm

You already know that things will go up and down - a real rollercoaster right? I don’t want to bore you with too much info but how is your diet and are you getting some daily exercise?

I can’t say enough about how incredibly important both eating healthy and doing daily cardiovascular exercise are when you’re starting out on the quitting journey. I have written a lot about this in detail if you care to go back and read some of my earlier content.

In the meantime just keep slugging it out knowing that each day clean is a greater achievement than the previous day. Try to stay focused on the benefits of quitting - too much feeling sorry for yourself will hinder your progress.
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Postby donewithdope » Thu Jan 02, 2020 8:37 am

Day 6
Thanks for yoir input HD.
Started practicing didgeridoo which is great for the lungs and my psyche.
No aerobic exercise yet
Added meditation
Healthy diet since years
Great sleep of 11 hrs last night
Feeling positive
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#7

Postby donewithdope » Thu Jan 02, 2020 8:38 am

More phlegm at back of throat
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#8

Postby donewithdope » Thu Jan 02, 2020 8:47 am

I'm going to stop posting and just read encouraging material.
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Postby tokeless » Thu Jan 02, 2020 5:00 pm

donewithdope wrote:I'm going to stop posting and just read encouraging material.

Why not just get on with life.. You've stopped the actual habit so why keep it so central to your life? Just my suggestion
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Postby HDog455 » Wed Jan 08, 2020 4:18 am

donewithdope wrote:I'm going to stop posting and just read encouraging material.


Just wanted to check-in with you to see how things are going.
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