by Cthompson21 » Sat Jan 25, 2020 10:57 pm
Wow I cant believe it's been 18 months of weed PAWS. I'm still going through it. What happened to me was that I had PAWS from another substance, recovered over 2.5 years, was happy again and thought nothing could stop me. I tried weed once (!) and my life came crashing down. My story is a little different from most people on here, since I was never addicted, but I do have experience in that area. I dont know if it is truly weed PAWS at this point or if It reawakened my old paws, but I had symptoms I never had before, namely DP and DR which scared me. Also vivid dreams, which have not gone away. I had one low point where I had a very scary dream with deformed people in an office and I asked them, why are you in my head? And they basically said you cant get rid of us. Another where I was communicating with the dead...very strange and scary stuff. I have gotten a lot better from the beginning, where I had panic attacks nonstop. It was so awful I thought I would never get better but I did, and am still recovering, I am not thriving, just functional. Also still have bad short term memory. It's very frustrating. I hope to keep recovering and maybe within the next year have some semblance of a normal life i had before weed, but if not, I guess I'll survive. Thanks to all who have helped along the way. I couldnt have done it without you!