Please help...Weed PAWS or something worse?

#15

Postby uniqueason » Tue Feb 04, 2020 8:15 pm

my other symptome idk if you mean physical or mental but the physical was moslty for me during month 1-2 after month 2 id be left with the mental symptome(worst for me) during my first inital month and a half i had very bad panick attack my vision would get blurred my heart would be out of control cant think anymore think your going crazy ect.. the classic after that id be left with major intrusive though(OCD) like my first 2-3 week i was SOOO paranoid and anxious was like a living nightmare(sorry if my english not good or my sentence dont make sense not my first language lol)

physical month 1-2
cold sweat
shaking(from time to time)
stop eating first month than start to eat very much more that i was after
heartbeat fast sometime(related to anxiety)
VERY TIRED BUT AT 100 DAY MARK IT START TO BE VERY BETTER SOME DAY i would lay down in my bed and wake up 2 day later id sleep 3 day at a time lay downnot be able to do anything


mental
major intrusive though
scared of sleeping in dark(thinkin i may see some sh**)
all type of health fear
major paranoia( first 2-3week)
very anxious about my mental health
yep was very bad to google symptome too lmfao
obsessing over it
depersonalisation that for sure
vision little bit strange
and i forget alot for sure (physicaly and mentally)
but that pretty much the worst for me at 100 day mark ( i start to loose day count a little bit*good sign* im like at 112 right now) i remark real progress but still a long way to go i smoking all day everyday multiple time a day for the past 6 years of my life in 21 years old now
scared of every sound or thing i may see thanks google scared im about to have delusion ect.... hope ill be good soon but these last day have a little bit of hope in them at 100 day mark was the first time i feel like 10 day( in a row) i felt *good* still thinkin about my fear sometime but can think about other thing pretty fast ask any other question it cool to talk with people that had the same fear look up : soberchic he was having the same fear that demon were after him till 3-4 month ( i think that come from googling some schizo story and our anxious mind made all those thing feel real)
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Postby Unususal » Wed Feb 05, 2020 6:25 am

uniqueason thank you very much brother.
I just woke up and saw your message and it gave me hope again.
Last night I actually felt almost 100% for a few hours.
I also slept good.
I don't know if it is the medication or I am just getting better.

We have very similair symptoms and I really hope that it is just PAWS and nothing worse..I really have to convince myself every day that it is not something worse..
I never had anything wrong mentally prior to this.
No OCD like intrusive thoughts...no paranoia or anxiety..nothing.
It really came overnight.
Do yo have problems with your short term memory?

Stay strong brother
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Postby Unususal » Wed Feb 05, 2020 10:35 am

I feel really good, but I am very scared of the fact that my Psychiatrist gave me Escitalopram (SSRI) and I am taking 5mg since Saturday.
I highly suspect that it is the only reason why I am feeling better.
I never took any meds, except aspirin.
He told me to take 5mg for the first 5 days and then 10mg daily for another 5 days (10 days in total).
I am so scared now that PAWS will hit right back as soon as I stop taking the meds.
Truth is there is less intrusive and racing thoughts and I am sleeping better.

I hope someone can comment and advise me further, regarding the meds or experience with them.

Thank you all.
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Postby Bombadil » Wed Feb 05, 2020 4:41 pm

@Unusual

I just started taking a low dose anti-depressant about a month ago. Some people think it will delay recovery, but I view it as stepping stone. If the mental symptoms decrease your quality of life to an unmanageable degree, I see nothing wrong with taking medication for some period of time, say 6-12 months. Your brain is still re-wiring and recovering from the THC dependency during this time, but the medication is taking some of the bite out of your PAWS. Be aware that you will have to taper off the meds at some point and can face withdrawal symptoms, but it won't be anything near the PAWS mental symptoms (at least for most people). Everyone is different when it comes to symptoms, timeline and sensitivity to substances, so you have to make a decision on whats best for you.

I experienced intrusive racing thoughts and terrible anxiety as well. It will get better in time, week by week and month by month. Waves will decrease in intensity and how long they last. It is not permanent and you are healing.

Best of luck in your recovery.
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Postby Unususal » Wed Feb 05, 2020 5:21 pm

Thank you Bombadil for your reply.
I basically fell very good most of the day with the meds.
The last two days were really great except maybe 2-3 hours of mild anxiety and an hour of crazy thoughts.
Considering how I felt just a week ago this is a huge improvement.
I am just worried what will happen when I quit the meds..

Stay strong everyone and please comment.
Your replies are giving me hope that everything will be fine and I am not mentally ill...
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Postby Head in loud » Wed Feb 05, 2020 8:38 pm

The first 3 month is hell on earth, just hang in there. Intrusive thoughts and thinking you are going crazy have mental issue is common symptoms of weed PAW. I’m 19 months off weed and when PAW wave hits I still gets them. Last wave I thought I had bipolar.
Keep busy and don’t listen nor read news, also be easy on yourselves...when you get the bad thought don’t fight...just let it pass...also try workout and eat lots of greens. Never try weed again even one puff will set you back.
Good luck!
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Postby uniqueason » Thu Feb 06, 2020 2:46 am

Unusual i would quit if i were atyour place brother you dont want to deal with another withrawal
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Postby uniqueason » Thu Feb 06, 2020 2:47 am

What ur symptom like unusual
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Postby uniqueason » Thu Feb 06, 2020 4:40 am

For me every litlle sound that my house make i try to double check it gettin anxiety over it worrying bout if it was real or not can anoyone relate that the most annoying symptome i got right now
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Postby Unususal » Thu Feb 06, 2020 7:57 am

Thank you all for the support...It really means a lot to me.

I had my bloodwork done yesterday and everything is fine.
I also contacted a specialist who is doing some schizophrenia testing, but I am not sure I want to do that, because I fear that this will make me even feel worse.

The thing is I had my Psychologist asking me basic questions from the test and one of them where: Do you think you are a God and that everything around you is happening because of you?
The question really shocked me because it seemed so absurd that someone could even think that..
But later that day I started to question myself...and now have this intrusive thought that I will start tripping that I am a God etc.
I mean I know that that is absurd, but still my mind plays tricks on me...and I keep stupidly questioning myself are you sure you are not thinking you are a God...and other totally irrational questions and thoughts..

Had crazy dreams about my past and also just random memories pop up for no specific reason.
My mind is just racing in a really irrational way.

I am a total mess. Really feeling like I am going crazy and want to quit the meds, but I am also afraid how I will feel without them.

I really hope this is "just" paws and I will see improvement soon...

Stay strong everyone.
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Postby Unususal » Thu Feb 06, 2020 8:15 am

I just have this immense fear that i will become delusional and start to hallucinate.
I am checking If I hear voices or sounds nobody else is...and all that really crazy staff..

Still can't convince myself it is just paws...just can't believe that weed could do this to me...
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Postby Unususal » Thu Feb 06, 2020 6:21 pm

@uniqueason hey brother how are u doing?

I thing the meds really helped me.
I feel really good the whole day...
Almost no intrusive thoughts and anxiety, but again really scared how I will function without them.

Stay strong everyone...
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Postby ashthewarrior7 » Fri Feb 07, 2020 7:54 am

Unususal, a couple of things man, if you're schizophrenic, you wouldn't able to say that your thoughts are being intrusive or irrational, the fact that you realize they are going crazy makes you not schizophrenic. Secondly, Schizophrenia and other such disorders are very intense man, what you are going through is very mild in comparison, what you are facing is anxiety, its all product of anxiety, just because you MAY hallucinate doesn't mean you're schizophrenic, intense pain, happiness, fear etc can cause hallucinations or different interpretations of reality.

The other part is, stay strong and hang on to any positivity, your mind and body is freaking out because it is not getting what it got dependent on. You brain has to function without something it thinks is necessary, its adaption, that is all that there is to it. keep yourself busy and you will recover.
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Postby Unususal » Fri Feb 07, 2020 8:23 am

Ashthewarrior7, thank you very much for your support. Every post gives me really hope that it is nothing worse.
My mind is just racing in such an irrational way and makes crazy connections and fears.
I am constantly fearing that this is like the beginning stage of schizophrenia.

I have no cravings and almost no depression or DP / DR.
I had no panic attack, just quit cause I thought it is enough.

I also realized that I can't take caffeine anymore..I drank a coffee in the first week and was on the edge of a panic attack the entire day.

My current symptoms are: insomnia, mood swings, short term memory problems, vivid dreams, excessive urination and the intrusive / irrational thoughts and fear of becoming schizophrenic.

Thank you again Ashthewarrior7 for taking the time..
I really hope this will pass.
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Postby ashthewarrior7 » Fri Feb 07, 2020 4:32 pm

Everything you said happens during withdrawals
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