Today is 84 days no weed
i'm stuck. days blend together. Everything is all the same and it seems to go nowhere.
The first month of quitting was great. I could see improvement day by day, and so could the people around me. Anxiety diminished after a month or 2 into quitting. with no more anxiety i could engage more socially and it felt great. I have always lived somewhat healthy but after quitting weed, health has been my nr. 1 priority. Healthy balanced meal and exercising everyday.
I have taken a break from studying and have moved home to my father in the countryside. The silence and the nature is a godsend. I have had the strangest symptoms the last few months. luckily most of these symptoms, like tinnitus, depression, pounding heart, agitation, feeling cold, muscle pain and so many others i have forgotten, have subsided. I still deal with extreme fatigue. everything is a chore and it seems to get harder day by day to do what is necessary to feel somewhat content. The symptoms that remains are debilitating and has made me quit 2 jobs after a few days of torture and agony. Besides the fatigue, my sleep quality is sh**. Vivid dreams every night which is close to giving me a breakdown every morning. Any kind of light hurts my eyes and i experience vision floaters/static whenever i'm exposed to light. I have tried working at night but it is impossible for me to sleep during the day. while exhausted my mind is still racing in a loop, thinking what can i do different so i can start providing for myself again. I am 24 years old, living with my father with no income...
i read on this forum that recovery can take up to 2 years which for me sounds ludacris (why is smoking weed now legal and acceptable??)
I am stuck. And my family and friends are getting inpatient. Sorry for the long post, but i just wanted to know if what i am experiencing is normal, and i guess i just want someone who has come through to the other side to tell me everything is fine and will be okay. Any wisdom would be highly appreciated