To those who have been through what i will be sharing with you, what do you suggest me to do at this moment?
i feel more lost than i have ever been.
I have always been and considered myself as a stoner, i felt like weed was a part of who i was and i could never enjoy life without weed since you all know how weed always seems to make sh** much better and hide out the dirt under the carpet.
Used to smoke on and off for about a year and everytime i had the chance i would go crazy with it, like joint after joint in the span of two three days. I would wake up and the first thing i would do is light up, it was at a point where i would rather avoid spending money on good food just to be able to get a baggie.
Never experienced crazy symptoms when stopping tho, maybe it was shitty weed i suppose and the strains weren’t that potent i would say.
Fast forward, moved to Canada and god damn the weed here is different.
After trying out for the first time some high potent sh** i loved it.
How Naive i was thinking that abusing this plant wouldn’t have any side effects..
so i started smoking heavily and daily with tobacco, and by heavily i mean 8 to 9 joints a day in the span of three months, sh** seemed to be alright and didn’t prevent me for not functioning normally, i would work and do sh** as if i haven’t smoked naught, but always felt kind of foggy not gonna lie.
On my 19th birthday decided to finally quit since i was realizing it was f***ing me up more than it was doing any good.
the first week was tough, cold sweats, insomnia, no appetite, nausea.. all the regular acute symptoms, no big deal.
After that, i felt re created, i had so much energy in me at a point where i was feeling like i could conquer the world, i could think clearly and was mire productive than ever..
But then came the charging bull which they call PAWS, it hit me out of no where on day 28 i guess after quitting.
Crazy mood swings, DP/DR, memory was f***ed, concentration as well, mostly brain fog which is still there even at day 110.
Saying i haven’t seen any progress from month one and two would be a lie. I used sleep an hour or two a night and go to work completely wrecked.
I have read many posts here and on reddit about people quitting and having breakthroughs at month 6 after quitting, i hope it will get better for me as well and that i haven’t caused some irreversible sh**.
God what i would do to get my good health back.
I’m on day 110 like i mentionned and still feeling weird, as if there is a cloud in my head which is making sh** much harder to do. Don’t know how to explain it but i just don’t feel connected to the present moment, people call it DP but i don’t know exactly what it is.
Anedonia is also a thing that i’m struggling with, anxiety and stress over the roof where as i have never been this anxious or stressed in my life before for any kind of reason.
Lost a person who was very close to me a couple pf days ago, and i just feel emptiness upon emptiness..
When is this foggyness going to lift? i just want to feel normal again.