Hello everyone. How are u doing? I hope you are good and on the path to healing.
So, 2 years and 7 months free. I just wanted to stop by and give you an update. I know how important it is for other people on the path to recovery to read pozitive stories, so that's why i'm still here. It helped me a lot to know others have recovered when i thought i was broken forever.
Soooo, things are perfect. I'm anxiety and depression free. I still have my ups and downs, but are normal, not paws like. I don't crave, i don't think about it. Life is good and beautiful.
After all that nightmare, i sometimes thank God and myself that i made the right choice and quit something that was bad for me.
I finished school. I'm a doctor now: emergency medicine. I'm so proud of myself that i made it here. My brain is working, i can think, i remember loads of things, no fog, no delay. I feel like i'm growing, evolving. It's awsome. Aaand i'm the best 1st year resident from my class. I know, i'm braging, but i want you to know that it can be possible to achieve your dreams, even if you think you can't right now.
You have to understand that i was afraid i couldn't study. My brain was so slow and full of irrational thought that filled up half of my attention span. I cried all over my books because of the crippling anxiety, i couldn't help myself, i was not in control of my emotions. But i stuck with it and i got through it and now i am here. It's a great accomplishment for me.
If i can do it, you can to. It's a no brainer. It's hard and messy, and you feel like it's never gonna stop. All the crying, depression, anxiety, helplesness, the suffocating feeling you have, it will go away. Just stay clean and breathe.
And most important, believe in yourself. I know it's hard, but when you have those few good days, just believe in yourself and find that inner strenght that will help you go through the worst days of paws.
Good thoughts to all of you,
Kisses