slow panic attack

Postby stulpouf » Tue Jul 07, 2020 6:31 pm

Hello, I would like to share with you an experience.
Last February I had a "psychotic episode" which caused me to be locked up for several weeks in a psychiatric hospital, I had never had one in the past. the experience was quite traumatic since I had this impression of an "evil presence (negative)" in me, I doubted each of my movements and reactions (guilt), I felt my energy being more and more concentrated in my head I did not allow myself any rest because I was afraid of being definitively sucked by this entity ... a nightmare. and that included the presence of a nauseating odor which appeared in my nose.
Since February I have gained 9 kg out of the 15 that I had lost over several months. 2 days ago while I was on my computer, this odor appeared again. And since then I observe without knowing what to do the nightmarish vicious circle to get back in place ... by reading articles I realized that what I have experience then, and now again, is a panic attack, all the symptoms are there especially the over-self-control - which I have the impression that it does not come from me ... since I especially want to rest and not fight a thought! - the most unbearable is that it's slow! it is not at all a 20-minute crisis with strong external agitation, it is rather a dull internal agitation, a very strong focus on what is wrong; and I do not know if I face enough, maybe I avoid feelings, or I trust too much in the future to save me....
is anybody have experienced similar things?
how to stay with sanity?
thanks! :>
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Postby Candid » Wed Jul 08, 2020 7:51 am

Were you given antipsychotics, stulpouf? And if so, are you still taking them?
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Postby stulpouf » Wed Jul 08, 2020 11:17 am

Yes for 1 or 2 months after the incident i was taking antipsychotics, there were giving me nightmares when sleeping and movements disorder, when i stopped taking the antipsychotics i felt more stable.. until now
--> i take spiruline, zinc and vitamin D now
but i see it's really a problem of focusing of attention, because for exemple when i write this i feel a little bit less stressed
In my life i have really little interactions and activities, i'm soon 20 and i'm not in school anymore since this year, i don't see any friends because i have few, since august 2019 until now i stayed home (except for the trip in psychiatric hospital) with only my mother who stay home too (no work) and my sister since march. i'm not invloved in anything, except in a video game contest of the best mini Park (planet coaster) since a couple of month.
right now i feel again the symptoms like feeling of a hollow chest and pain in the heart...
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Postby Candid » Wed Jul 08, 2020 1:28 pm

stulpouf wrote:when i write this i feel a little bit less stressed


That's what we're here for. It's a great forum and there are plenty of long-term members who use it as stress relief and a way to offload.

In my life i have really little interactions and activities, i'm soon 20 and [...] i don't see any friends because i have few...


That makes me wonder whether you might suffer from complex PTSD, because relational problems are its most devastating consequences. Have a look at this https://www.outofthestorm.website/cptsd-description and see if it fits.
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