Hey Acliff21, I know these feelings all too well. Just try to hang in there. I've been in paws 21 out of the last 28 months so it's all becoming more normal to me now feeling that way. I relapsed twice during those 28 months and had to go through it all over again, on my 3rd time now. 4 months is pretty good you should be proud, you should be feeling closer to normal around the 7 or 8 month point if you don't smoke. You'll still probably have some paws waves from time to time but in all my research on this forum these numbers are pretty common but obviously vary from person to person. Paws feels like it will never get better, but time will heal you believe me.
Tonight I made a list of all the positive things I've done since quitting, stuff like that helps me through those harder times.