About 2 months quit weed...

Postby BruceLeeroy » Mon Oct 26, 2020 8:36 am

...and I never felt so much better!

About 20 years toking and daily for most of that time. Feeling much different from other times I've tried quitting in the past. The dreams, clear-headedness, remembering stuff, feeling my brain and body rewire itself, and not just plain ol' not having to deal with it...being sober never felt so good! :P

Edit: Had hard anxiety and depression the first 6-8 weeks, but pulled on through. Still have major insomnia and can't fall asleep nor stay asleep in the middle of the night, but looking forward to overcoming that milestone someday soon!
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Postby Psicology » Wed Oct 28, 2020 11:31 am

Compliments! You are an excellent example! Continue without giving up!
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Postby BruceLeeroy » Fri Oct 30, 2020 7:20 am

Thank you so much, Psicology! It's a difficult process, don't get me wrong. Still having trouble sleeping, but at least I no longer have the little devil standing on my other shoulder this time around telling me that it's ok to toke up again. I am thoroughly convinced to never do it again. Not just telling myself that but it's oddly how I truly feel.

Really appreciate your kind words helping me pull through this!
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Postby BruceLeeroy » Wed Nov 11, 2020 4:55 am

2 and 1/2 months in. Brain tingling has subsided and occurs rarely and faintly now along with subtle and short headaches. The weed tasting phlegm that was clearing up in the back of my throat the past few weeks has disappeared now. Sill no desire to ever toke up again and very much enjoying the clear-headedness. This has been one of the biggest mental steps differing this quit from others in the past -- I no longer identify myself with weed smoking.

Other PAWS symptoms are showing up. Insomnia seems to have increased with heart palpitations now occurring every night at about 1am to sunrise basically on cue for the last couple weeks. This, which I believe is caused by a rise in anxiety and depression, seem to be the biggest obstacles at this point. I can't fall asleep for more than a couple hours and the vivid dreams I'm having now seem to all be nightmarish dealing with unsettled emotions in the past. I feel it's my body and mind trying to sort through these feelings now that were once just pushed aside and numbed out from getting high. Libido is up and down. I also have a hard and random snap biting of my teeth once every few nights, not sure if anyone else has experienced this.

As an aside, I've also lessened my drinking by a lot -- no more drinking a beer or glass of whiskey by myself daily, only on holidays and occasions with friends -- and I quit smoking cigarettes for almost 9 years now (after about 16 years of smoking). After I quit cigarettes cold turkey, I felt anything was possible. Smoking weed helped me a lot in the process, but it's served its purpose and its time to let go of that now, too. Funny thing is, I can remember my cigarette quit day better than my loved ones' birthdays. I also quit sugar for the last few years, just eating it on rare occasions.

All in all, it feels great to be sober. Looking forward to month 3.
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Postby Brokethehabit » Wed Nov 11, 2020 7:47 pm

You're doing great m8!
When I was at your stage I was having a dreadful time. I was literally in survival mode.
Keep it up!
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Postby BruceLeeroy » Tue Nov 24, 2020 2:18 am

Thanks, Brokethehabit! Trust me, it is pretty dreadful. But I'm hanging in there. About to hit 3 months!
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Postby Prycejosh1987 » Sun Dec 13, 2020 5:43 pm

Try relaxation methods before bedtime. I work out using dumbbells before bed and massage my head and brain minutes before sleeping these things helps. Also create a sleeping routine.
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Postby BruceLeeroy » Sat Dec 26, 2020 8:21 pm

Prycejosh1987 wrote:Try relaxation methods before bedtime. I work out using dumbbells before bed and massage my head and brain minutes before sleeping these things helps. Also create a sleeping routine.


Thanks for the tips, Prycejosh1987. Creating a sleeping routine has helped me the most. Although it was hard creating one because PAWS would keep me up all night, I eventually forced myself to just stay up until the next evening, skipping sleep for over a day, until I was so tired I had to fall asleep in the evening (9-10pmish). After a few tries (also in my third month where the insomnia was weaker) it finally worked and I can sleep during regular hours again! Phew!
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Postby BruceLeeroy » Sat Dec 26, 2020 8:28 pm

Month 4 update:

In month 4
Random dry eyes for a short period, better now
Tinnitus gone for most part
Ringing ears gone for most part
Occasional lymphatic sensations under jaw and chin nearly gone
Eye floaters came back briefly towards end of 3rd month, but now gone
Racing thoughts diminished
Nightmarish vivid dreams gone, have normal dreams again now which were non existent during addiction
Normal sleep schedule slowly coming back still not there yet
Can only sleep for about 4-5 hours straight but much better than the 1-2 hours max in the first few months
Can fall back to sleep much easier
Heart palps still present esp in bed but no where near as intense or as long as in first few months, there were moments I thought my heart was going to explode during that time and once got up in the middle of the night to exercise it off which helped calm it down for about an hour untill it started palping really hard again
Libid much better
Thinking feels improved, intact, and much more clear
No more headaches or brain tingling, just very subtle sensations on rare occasions
Clenching teeth throughout the day and night much less now, but still not gone yet
Intrusive and schizo-like thoughts diminishing and weaker now esp compared to first few months
Under tremendous stress right now from life, but depression and anxiety decreasing in occurence
This weird thing called emotions coming back slowly
Still absolutely no desire to smoke up, content to not do it anymore at all

Just want to add that I also cut down my normal alcohol intake a lot to about once a month now during this time and remain on my low/no sugar low carb diet. I feel they have a positive effect on the weed quit and are helping speed up its progress. More importantly I believe usage of other drugs, nicotine, alcohol, even caffeine and especially sugar give off similar symptoms and can intensify and prolong paws.

First time drinking alcohol in about a month. Drank some sake on evening of Sat Dec 12, went to bed with intense heart palpitations which had been much less severe during last couple of weeks. Was still able to fall asleep quickly however and for 4-5 hours straight. Woke up around 3am, and was able to fall back asleep around 4 until 7am. Light dreams remembered when waking. Sleep schedule is returning to normal, was total opposite before, but extremely heavy eyed during the beginning of cycle at around 9-10pm.

Drank some whisky two nights later. Experienced crazy heart palpitations, gout, and an anxiety attack the following day...
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