by Robb1e_g » Tue Nov 03, 2020 7:26 am
Hello guys, I’m Robb1e_g and I joined this forum years ago after experiencing PAWS due to quitting weed after a year and a half of daily heavy THC wax use and a traumatizing LSD trip. It’s been probably at least 3 years now since it all happened and I’m here to give everyone hope with my testimony. Look back at my first posts to see how bad it was, but you all know obviously that PAWS is hell on earth. I had dr/pr daily, extreme anxiety and panic attacks daily to the point where I had to hold my moms hand and curl up in a ball, extreme depression and suicidal thoughts everyday for atleast a whole year, etc. I researched everything you could imagine for a cure, and nothing worked. I would think it would work and then make a post saying I’m all good only for it to come back again. Through all of this depression and anxiety I was in existential thought a lot and decided to study and research philosophy and the hard sciences because I wanted to find truth, if there is a God then I want to know him and if not what’s the point. Long story short, even though I was prideful and really doubted God, I eventually through in the towel because there was too much evidence for God rather than against. I put my faith in him and slowly throughout the last year and a half of the time I went through PAWS I slowly changed as a person. My whole lifestyle has changed to the point where I am unrecognizable to before. I think we don’t realize how broke we were until we give up what was keeping us alive, and we realize we were just growing weary of pleasure and found emptiness inside ourselves following the cessation of our drug use and addictions. The truth is, despite how you are feeling right now and the thoughts you are having, they don’t equate to reality. The truth is Independent of your actions and thoughts and feelings, and this is important because truth is everything. And I’m here to say truthfully that the truth is Jesus Christ. And I owe everything to him because he alone saved me and completely healed me and rid me of all anxiety, depression, dr/pr, head fog, memory problems, hypoglycemia, caffeine sensitivity, you name it. After this was gone though I realized how much more that needed fixed in me. You must watch the way you conduct your life and what you watch and hear and see because it affect you. I assume most of us who struggled with addictions of weed also struggle with masturbation and/or porn. This is just as bad as smoking I promise. Take the focus off of yourself and love others, serve others, take care of your body, and fill your empty heart with Jesus and get to know God and reasons to believe him. Being the God of yourself will end up in you destroying yourself like it did me. Please don’t take this lightly and just ask Jesus to come into your heart and start changing you and have faith. We are all sinful at heart and we all make bad decisions, that’s why we all ended up on this forum at some point. You can’t do life by yourself, you only have a short 70 years but they can become grueling if you think you have the steering wheel on your life. Just give it to God because you were never in control to begin with. God loved you so much that even though you messed up and don’t deserve to be with him, he sent his one and only son to die for you so you can have relationship with him. That’s true love. Please follow him. He changed my life and I am so filled with joy each day and I never ever thought I would be able to truly mean it and say PAWS is behind me and has been behind me for a long time now, but Jesus did it all. Nothing else works, I promise because I tried it. Trust in him.