2 years clean

Postby tokes » Fri Nov 27, 2020 12:54 am

In 2016 I attempted to quit cannabis. It lasted a year before a broken wrist and a recent break up with the GF got me back into it.

In 2018 I quit for a second time. Debilitating panic attacks, paranoia, sluggishness and a massive decline in being able to keep together an orderly life forced me to quit.

Mental/emotional PAWs was manageable. But for 2 years I had anxiety, terrible thumping all-day-long heart palpitations, a spike in random illogical fears, mini panic attacks and a massive intolerance to nicotine, alcohol and caffeine. I was physically in a vunerable state but mentally more prepared for the battle. This lasted the best part of 1.5 years.

As of now I am mostly symptom free. No PAWs, no waves, no anxiety, no sudden deep depressions, nothing.

Short term memory, concerntrating on tasks efficiently, micro-managing study, work and relationships are all still an issue but those are common hurdles we all face in this hectic modern life.

I still do sports and regularly go to the gym. I tried to save for small holidays to get out away every now and then and get some vitamin D.

Keep your heads up, there is a way without this drug. It doesn't need to have a negative impact on your life and things can return back to normal for you and you will be grateful for it.

Whatever you're going through now will pass, keep on the road to light.

Strength and Peace :wink:

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Postby tokes » Fri Nov 27, 2020 1:09 am

2 years 8 months*
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Postby BruceLeeroy » Fri Nov 27, 2020 4:39 am

Glad to hear you've recovered, Tokes. Would you say it was consistently tough though those 1.5 years or did it ramp down at all? Did it get much easier from 1.5 years to 2 years 8 months?
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Postby tokes » Fri Nov 27, 2020 12:21 pm

Thanks for the message. The first 6 months were turmoil. Panic attacks would happen on a weekly basis with each one lessening severity over a year.

Year 1 clean to year 2 clean was of course more manageable and I could function a normal life with small minute waves hitting me once a month.

From year 2 clean to now has been largely symptom free if anything at all. The heart palpitations though have only recently cleared up though which was the one the most annoying things about this second quit experience.
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Postby Prycejosh1987 » Sun Dec 13, 2020 5:39 pm

Seems you smoke weed to fill a void, i think you should consider something else rather then weed. Work on relationships and fine tune them, to get the best out of it.
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Postby PAWSBOOK » Wed Dec 16, 2020 10:04 am

Are you able to use alcohol, caffeine or nicotine again without triggering symptoms?
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Postby tokes » Thu Dec 17, 2020 10:20 am

@PAWSBOOK

I had a holiday not so long ago for a couple of weeks and I drunk and smoked cigarettes almost everyday. Then after back home there was a series of birthdays and BBQs which I also drunk at. No symptoms.

İf I drink coffee I stick to one in a day never more. Not a huge fan anyway.

However in the past if I drunk, the heart palpitations would start immediately and the day after I'd feel terrible and shaky. Not anymore.
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Postby PAWSBOOK » Thu Dec 17, 2020 1:22 pm

Awesome!
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Postby tokes » Thu Mar 25, 2021 12:42 am

3 YEARS CLEAN

Mostly symptom free.
Improvements in information retention, blush/face-contortion-free social interactions, more engaged with people and less in my head, very stable mood which builds character, less sporadical personality, more calm and mature, 90% anxiety/panic disorder free, happier, more active, more energy.

Still have heart palpitations. I attribute this to nicotine intake as I still smoke and vape tobacco, e-juice etc. I will go to get my cortisol levels checked, my adrenal glands checked, and my heart checked as I have delayed this check up. Heart palpitations for 3 years is kinda not normal. All started with first panic attack. However it is not accompanied by any other symptoms, so doubt there it is serious, but its getting really f-cking annoying now so will check it out this week. Will update on that front here soon if any results come up.

I sleep late and have a sh-tty schedule but the quality of sleep is generally good. No nightmares or intense dreaming.

Still take vitamin c, d and zinc as a dissolvable fruity drink, spirulina, fish oils, protien powder, creatine cycles and drink lots and lots of tasty water.

Started carnivore diet, saw improvements in weight and mental clarity.

Removed all plastics from diet, e.g. no food in plastic containers, no water in plastic bottle.

Try to pray daily and say thanks for all the things I have no matter how small or insignificant, gratitude is always a great assistance to healing.

I have been around marijuana, I have been offered it, I have been in the same room as it was smoked. But there is never an urge. That is a chapter of my life that is over now and I have no real reason to go back to it. I can attain levels of mental chillness, self-reflection and serenity without the use of marijuana. I can just sit in my room and zone out, or meditate or watch a comedy show and laugh on my own with the need to smoke weed. I have a line or two of coke when offered at a party, I've gotten drunk with friends, but I have never touched or smoked weed. That first panic attack and the year of hell after it is just not worth it, not even a puff.

Will report back soon.

Take care all.
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Postby sarasara » Thu Mar 25, 2021 7:33 am

be careful about period of returning including:
one week
20days
40days
3month
6month
2years
5years
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Postby Winzu » Thu Mar 25, 2021 1:17 pm

tokes wrote:3 YEARS CLEAN

Mostly symptom free.
Improvements in information retention, blush/face-contortion-free social interactions, more engaged with people and less in my head, very stable mood which builds character, less sporadical personality, more calm and mature, 90% anxiety/panic disorder free, happier, more active, more energy.

Still have heart palpitations. I attribute this to nicotine intake as I still smoke and vape tobacco, e-juice etc. I will go to get my cortisol levels checked, my adrenal glands checked, and my heart checked as I have delayed this check up. Heart palpitations for 3 years is kinda not normal. All started with first panic attack. However it is not accompanied by any other symptoms, so doubt there it is serious, but its getting really f-cking annoying now so will check it out this week. Will update on that front here soon if any results come up.

I sleep late and have a sh-tty schedule but the quality of sleep is generally good. No nightmares or intense dreaming.

Still take vitamin c, d and zinc as a dissolvable fruity drink, spirulina, fish oils, protien powder, creatine cycles and drink lots and lots of tasty water.

Started carnivore diet, saw improvements in weight and mental clarity.

Removed all plastics from diet, e.g. no food in plastic containers, no water in plastic bottle.

Try to pray daily and say thanks for all the things I have no matter how small or insignificant, gratitude is always a great assistance to healing.

I have been around marijuana, I have been offered it, I have been in the same room as it was smoked. But there is never an urge. That is a chapter of my life that is over now and I have no real reason to go back to it. I can attain levels of mental chillness, self-reflection and serenity without the use of marijuana. I can just sit in my room and zone out, or meditate or watch a comedy show and laugh on my own with the need to smoke weed. I have a line or two of coke when offered at a party, I've gotten drunk with friends, but I have never touched or smoked weed. That first panic attack and the year of hell after it is just not worth it, not even a puff.

Will report back soon.

Take care all.


Yoo Tokes, your first story really represents my withdrawals. Would you be available for a talk? I am not able to sent you a private message here. Do you possibly have reddit?
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Postby Gerre » Fri Mar 26, 2021 7:53 pm

tokes wrote:3 YEARS CLEAN

Mostly symptom free.
Improvements in information retention, blush/face-contortion-free social interactions, more engaged with people and less in my head, very stable mood which builds character, less sporadical personality, more calm and mature, 90% anxiety/panic disorder free, happier, more active, more energy.

Still have heart palpitations. I attribute this to nicotine intake as I still smoke and vape tobacco, e-juice etc. I will go to get my cortisol levels checked, my adrenal glands checked, and my heart checked as I have delayed this check up. Heart palpitations for 3 years is kinda not normal. All started with first panic attack. However it is not accompanied by any other symptoms, so doubt there it is serious, but its getting really f-cking annoying now so will check it out this week. Will update on that front here soon if any results come up.

I sleep late and have a sh-tty schedule but the quality of sleep is generally good. No nightmares or intense dreaming.

Still take vitamin c, d and zinc as a dissolvable fruity drink, spirulina, fish oils, protien powder, creatine cycles and drink lots and lots of tasty water.

Started carnivore diet, saw improvements in weight and mental clarity.

Removed all plastics from diet, e.g. no food in plastic containers, no water in plastic bottle.

Try to pray daily and say thanks for all the things I have no matter how small or insignificant, gratitude is always a great assistance to healing.

I have been around marijuana, I have been offered it, I have been in the same room as it was smoked. But there is never an urge. That is a chapter of my life that is over now and I have no real reason to go back to it. I can attain levels of mental chillness, self-reflection and serenity without the use of marijuana. I can just sit in my room and zone out, or meditate or watch a comedy show and laugh on my own with the need to smoke weed. I have a line or two of coke when offered at a party, I've gotten drunk with friends, but I have never touched or smoked weed. That first panic attack and the year of hell after it is just not worth it, not even a puff.

Will report back soon.

Take care all.


How long were you smoking?

Interesting you mentioned carnivore diet, I have also been considering starting that but I fear it might be too much too soon, Im only 5 months clean and I was smoking daily for 9 years. Im also a huge sugar/carb addict
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Postby tokes » Sat Mar 27, 2021 10:29 am

@Winzu yeah sure man it's Last_Viking3

@Gerre You can check through my first ever post about 5 years ago. I smoked non-stop from 17-25. Carbs/sugar spike cortisol and cortisol plays a role in mood, anxiety and stress levels. But this is something you should look into maybe after a year free of cannabis, don't change everything too fast, big mistake.
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Postby Gerre » Sat Mar 27, 2021 6:56 pm

tokes wrote:@Winzu yeah sure man it's Last_Viking3

@Gerre You can check through my first ever post about 5 years ago. I smoked non-stop from 17-25. Carbs/sugar spike cortisol and cortisol plays a role in mood, anxiety and stress levels. But this is something you should look into maybe after a year free of cannabis, don't change everything too fast, big mistake.


Thanks for the reply.

You can ask me questions about your heart if you want, Im a cardiologist
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Postby tokes » Thu Apr 01, 2021 5:14 pm

ACTH levels 54.0 pg/ml. Normal levels 7-63.3 pg/ml
Cortisol 16.8 ug/ml Normal levels 6-18 ug/ml

So kinda in the high section, but medically speaking, normal.
ECG and ultrasound showed normal heart functionality.
Was given a beta-blockers. I've never liked taking medication but I am really getting sick and tired of these heart palpitations now, that I have to take them.

@Gerre may I message you via telegram or reddit?
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