Why you should stay away from drugs

Postby adamzapple26 » Sat Jan 02, 2021 3:17 am

Sheesh, where do I even start. Ok, so about 5 years ago to be exact, I was a sophomore at an elite college that I just transferred too. Smart kid (3.8) GPA, very outgoing, work hard play hard type of guy, fit, and super exited to make relationships and network throughout my college career while heading towards a field in Wall Street.
What I noticed while living in my dormitory is that most of the kids there didn’t have to work or really worry about money while attending school. Very different to how I grew up. I grew up in a small apartment with my parents my whole life and had to work the minute it was legal to buy things I wanted. I was going to school full time and working full time with only being able to party or have fun once a week. I became very jealous of my friends as I wanted to relax a bit more and not work as much so I can socialize more.
Long story short, I became cool with a lot of different fraternities and made friends with a lot of girls. Started selling drugs and weed to make money so I wouldn’t have to work and can just focus on school and partying, networking, etc.
1 year later I’m selling about 100 pounds of weed a month. Stopped selling drugs because I thought I was too risky to do both. Just sticked to weed and I was 21 making about 20-60k a month in cash. I was traveling every week hitting strip clubs, banging hookers, going to the best clubs with vip, you name it. Few months later once of my best friends set me up. Luckily for the cops they caught me on a bad day but sh** it was still a good amount. Got caught with 14 lbs of weed and 40k cash.
They were really try to pin me hard I mean 4-5 years but with an amazing lawyer I was able to get a deal to do 6 months of prison and 2 years of parole.I’m about 2 months away from being free.
I now have a felony on my record of marijuana which I’ll hopefully be able to expunge in a year or 2 as my state just legalized it. I’m kinda lost now. Don’t know what to do once I’m done. I used to be extremely motivated and goal oriented. I’ve still been going to the gym but career wise, idk what to do. I have about 25k saved up since I got released about 19 months ago. I also just quit my job to go on unemployment in order to work on my self spiritually and figure out what I really want to do.

Oh and while going through all of this, I too have been suffering deeply from PAWS. I dealt with it while I was in prison which was horrifying and while on parole (present time). I’m about 2 1/2 years sober and I still feel some symptoms. Mostly brain fog and short term memory loss. Even though I’ve gone so long being sober, I think about drinking or smoking a blunt literally every single day. I know once I start drinking or smoking my symptoms will subside but with everything I’ve gone through, I know I have to do better.
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Postby tokeless » Sat Jan 02, 2021 9:03 am

Tough story but you've put it behind you hopefully. Why not look at retraining in something more spiritual than corporate?
I wish you well.
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Postby adamzapple26 » Sat Jan 02, 2021 2:57 pm

Thanks for replying tokeless! I have put it all behind me but now that I have a record, sometimes I feel like there is no hope for me. The most recent job I had I was a supervisor for a moving company and I got the job by lying, saying how I was a junior in college who got caught with some weed in my dorm and how it’s gonna be removed from my record after a probation period. I don’t think that excuse will work again. Lately I’ve been reading lots of books on entrepreneurship and e-commerce thinking that is my only hope. I will probably start something within the next 3 months. We’ll see.
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Postby tokeless » Sat Jan 02, 2021 6:43 pm

I've never understood drug laws relating to weed. However, demonising the user has been policy for decades. Nixon didn't like those anti war hippies wanting peace, so he declared war on them. I thought America didn't get irony.
Jamaica decriminalised it because they realised that the young couldn't get visas with a record and most of them had one for weed possession, hence stuck there with only crime as a way of making a living.
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Postby PAWSBOOK » Tue Jan 05, 2021 2:41 pm

Amazing story. How was it like to experience PAWS in prison? And, for how long have you smoked weed / drinked alcohol?
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Postby adamzapple26 » Sat Jan 16, 2021 2:25 am

It was terrible man but I dealt with paws unfortunately before in highschool. Started smoking weed at 14 and when I was 16 I was drinking everyday and doing drugs on the weekend on top of smoking weed. However, as bad as it sounds, I was always ambitious and motivated. While having this habit I had good grades in school and once I hit 16 I was also working full time. Towards the end of my junior year of highschool I decided to go sober so I can focus on getting into a really good college and have my head straight. A month later, BOOM paws hit me and I lost it. Long story short it started to get better my freshman year of college so I knew that it wouldn’t last forever. But my dumbass got distracted and picked up that old habit right away. Saw the females and the parties and I just went to it as I have a very addictive personality. Told myself that I would deal with paws later on in life and also told myself that it wouldn’t be a problem since I’ve already dealt with it in the past.
So answering to your question about dealing with it in prison, I knew how PAWS was going to affect me. Yes, it was terrible but I knew what was coming. Fast forward to now I’m doing much better but still some minor symptoms.
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Postby FAITH » Sat Jan 16, 2021 2:56 pm

@adamzapple26, you say “I’m doing much better”...after how long were you doing much better. Also you say “still some minor symptoms”. Curious what the minor symptoms are if you don’t mind me asking. I’m at 6 months and 16 days. I have good days and bad days, and not the typical bad days everyone has from time to time. My main issues are heart related. Palpitations and racing. I never them had before I started and when I smoked weed I never had them, just started when I quit. Thanks man.
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