mental diseases

[LukasZInk1]

So am I the only one who developed a mental disease?

I guess it all started in 2016 when I went for a world trip in my gab year and smoked the hell of a lot weed every day for 2 months straight, till I got home, and for 4 -7 days had PAWS, never realized what it was before it/PAWS already was gone. Then I started university and was on/off weed for half a year, then I smoked regularly again, and at some point a switch went off in my brain and something just felt differently, put I couldnt put my finger on what exactly... In short, I dropped out of university, quit weed, but still felt something was off. I ran out of money, and ended on the streets for a year and first 2019 I sought out help from government in Denmark, got a place to stay, got money to live by, but things still seemed off in my brain, I had intrusive thoughts like “what if kill someone”, “rape someone” or “kill my self”, hard dp/dr like “am I real” and what is reality, I had kind of tunnel vision like the degree I could see was compromised and “visual snow” and “eye floaters” irritated the hell out of me. It wasnt till last summer 2020, where I had a breakdown and talked about memories with family which they couldn't relate to, but I was sure they happened. At some point I think I got so caught up in my fantasy world created by me because of loneliness, that I thought some memories/dreams to be true. I got into a psychiatry for 2 weeks and was diagnosed with schizophrenia .

Till now I sometimes feel like Im not schizophrenic, but I guess I must be, unless my whole family is in on some conspiracy against me, which I highly doubt. I guess to be schizophrenic you dont need to hear voices or have different personalities, but it can be rather low-key.

Also, my energy level is so low, Im basically sitting at home for the most time, surfing on the internet. I have developed social anxiety, im still fighting with intrusive thoughts like when Im sitting in the car and someones driving and I think “what if I just grip the steering wheel and cause and accident”, its damn annoying. Im also on medication now, Abilify, which I think helps a lot. Or anxiety like what if someone stabs me with a knife in the supermarket.

Well, I guess the “silver lining” in this whole mess is I never did harder drugs, and the damage done isnt irreversible. I believe in physical exercise, healthy diet, go out-doors and feel mother nature, and being part of some bigger social circle. All tho I dont have all that yet (im only left with 2 friends), I have a goal, to explore those things, and with that in mind, Im optimistic about the future. Its not going to be easy, hell im even struggling to put together a healthy diet now, but Im going to fight on. Every day counts.

Funny thing is, I never really had problems quitting weed. That was the easy part, because I felt like crap when I smoked in my final months, and every time I tried it since, it triggers bad memories and a general bad feeling in my brain. SO I dont smoke anymore at all, havent done it in years. But the difficult thing is to repair the damage done by weed, and for 3 years now, I have struggled, but I also feel like things are getting better.

Are there other people in the same boat (developed mental diseases, and fighting with dp/dr, and intrusive thoughts in particular)?

[Ekko]

Are you taking any medication for schizophrenia?

[LukasZInk1]

Are you taking any medication for schizophrenia?

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Yes, its called Abilify maintena and I get injected with 400mg every 3 weeks. I was told if a healhty person takes Abilify, nothing happens, a sick person with schizophrenia will get better. Its something with the balance of endorphins which is off in the brain.

If you are wondering if its effective? Im not to sure tbh, it kinda feels like im getting better, but I did so anyway after I stopped smoking, gradually but slowly. I dont have hallucinations (which I had one single time) and dp/dr also seems to get better, but intrusive thoughts I still have.

It has been half a year, and im also very lucky to not get any side effects at all. A lot of patients dont take their meds because of severe side effects, so I was told.

[Ekko]

Yeah if you stopped taking the abilify then the psychosis is likely to come back. I think abilify is one of the better ones for side effects so if you get on alright with it that’s good.

And yes healthy diet and a bit of exercise is great.

[thegreatdane]

Believe it or not, but my name is Lukas and im also from Denmark lol. Basically bro i also quit weed 3 years ago since it gave me social anxiety, slight ocd, anheodnia, depression, etc. I had all those symptoms for 2 years after quitting. Its PAWS. It could be that weed triggered a mental illness in you but i actually 100 percent believe this sh** to be reversible through exercise, meditation, a balanced diet, no addiction to drugs or alcohol, and stopping masurbation and porn. Get the brain back in balance. I would say cut the meds but then again i know they probably help you a lot, and i dont wanna bring you in danger. I dont believe we are doomed, **** the matrix and **** what society tells us. Do your research on the things i told you. Semen retention, meditation, exercise, and binaural beats.
Du kan altid skrive en besked til mig hvis der er noget brormand

[tokeless]

Believe it or not, but my name is Lukas and im also from Denmark lol. Basically bro i also quit weed 3 years ago since it gave me social anxiety, slight ocd, anheodnia, depression, etc. I had all those symptoms for 2 years after quitting. Its PAWS. It could be that weed triggered a mental illness in you but i actually 100 percent believe this sh** to be reversible through exercise, meditation, a balanced diet, no addiction to drugs or alcohol, and stopping masurbation and porn. Get the brain back in balance. I would say cut the meds but then again i know they probably help you a lot, and i dont wanna bring you in danger. I dont believe we are doomed, **** the matrix and **** what society tells us. Do your research on the things i told you. Semen retention, meditation, exercise, and binaural beats.
Du kan altid skrive en besked til mig hvis der er noget brormand

Whilst your post is probably good intentioned, it is risky to tell someone that you believe they may not need meds, when you don't know that. You advise what you found helpful and that's ok, but the OP needs to have the discussion with the person prescribing them.

[thegreatdane]

Believe it or not, but my name is Lukas and im also from Denmark lol. Basically bro i also quit weed 3 years ago since it gave me social anxiety, slight ocd, anheodnia, depression, etc. I had all those symptoms for 2 years after quitting. Its PAWS. It could be that weed triggered a mental illness in you but i actually 100 percent believe this sh** to be reversible through exercise, meditation, a balanced diet, no addiction to drugs or alcohol, and stopping masurbation and porn. Get the brain back in balance. I would say cut the meds but then again i know they probably help you a lot, and i dont wanna bring you in danger. I dont believe we are doomed, **** the matrix and **** what society tells us. Do your research on the things i told you. Semen retention, meditation, exercise, and binaural beats.
Du kan altid skrive en besked til mig hvis der er noget brormand

Whilst your post is probably good intentioned, it is risky to tell someone that you believe they may not need meds, when you don't know that. You advise what you found helpful and that's ok, but the OP needs to have the discussion with the person prescribing them.

If you read me reply i didnt say he SHOULD cut his meds. I said my normally my personal opinion would be to cut the meds but it would be dumb to suggest that because it could put him in danger. Always good to do some research of how to get the brain in balance naturally. Nobody is doomed to have a mental illness even if we have it in our genes. Its just a matter of realising we live in a society that wants control and dull people and after that realise that we humans can heal ourself naturally. Semen retention, fasting, dry fasting, vibrational frequencies, subliminal messages, binuaral beats, etc, etc. There is zero profit for the big pharma to promote free ways to heal our body and brain. I wish i had this knowledge when i was in paws, or when i was a kid struggling with depression and couldnt figure out why but would go home listen to my beloved news, jack off to porn and wonder why my brain didnt have any serotonin or dopamine to function(just to give an example)
Humans are so powerful, we just dont realise it.

[tokeless]

I would say cut the meds but then again i know they probably help you a lot, and i dont wanna bring you in danger.

That is still suggestablity and when someone is struggling they may take the decision to try it. As for you assertion that mental illness can be managed in non pharmaceutical ways. Illness like schizophrenia requires meds, whereas depression maybe not so much. With regards to society wanting to control etc... why would it select certain people to do that to? Why not all of us? I'm no fan of big pharma but without certain drugs people become seriously ill. I say that as a clinical nurse specialist in mental health and have seen numerous examples and suicides because of people choosing not to take medication.

[LukasZInk1]

Yeah if you stopped taking the abilify then the psychosis is likely to come back. I think abilify is one of the better ones for side effects so if you get on alright with it that’s good.

And yes healthy diet and a bit of exercise is great.

I also think so, other drugs make you apparently drowsy and
other stuff, with abilify I dont feel any side effects at all.

Yes, its doing all right, but Im just not sure if its the meds or just me getting further and further away from PAWS because of time.

At some point I will get off the meds (after careful consideration and in agreement with my psychiatrist/doctor of course), and then I will know if they do are doing anything / if I still need them.

[LukasZInk1]

Believe it or not, but my name is Lukas and im also from Denmark lol. Basically bro i also quit weed 3 years ago since it gave me social anxiety, slight ocd, anheodnia, depression, etc. I had all those symptoms for 2 years after quitting. Its PAWS. It could be that weed triggered a mental illness in you but i actually 100 percent believe this sh** to be reversible through exercise, meditation, a balanced diet, no addiction to drugs or alcohol, and stopping masurbation and porn. Get the brain back in balance. I would say cut the meds but then again i know they probably help you a lot, and i dont wanna bring you in danger. I dont believe we are doomed, **** the matrix and **** what society tells us. Do your research on the things i told you. Semen retention, meditation, exercise, and binaural beats.
Du kan altid skrive en besked til mig hvis der er noget brormand

Hej Lukas, hyggeligt at møde dig, jeg har læst dine indlæg herinde på forummet, og det var opløftende at vide at en også gik det sammen igennem som mig selv - med et næsten identisk forløb endda. At vi er navnebrødre er bare en ekstra bonus haha.
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Kært barn har mange navne. The thing is, at this point I dont think I want to call my problem PAWS anymore, its more the damage done by being isolated for a long time and not being part of something bigger.

I dont think Im schizophrenic - or at least not textbook example - I probably had psychotic moments, thats it, and the meds im taking arent that bad, I dont actually feel any side effects, and actually feel a bit more more clear headed (But that may just be my imagination haha).

So I wont go off the meds, but I will certainly try to stay off porn haha, exercise more, do meditation etc. summasumarum live more healthy.

I dont know about lets say "government" trying to control people- that may be the case, I just havent done any research on that - but I certainly believe there is corruption everywhere even here in Denmark, and there are some groups of people with an agenda (money and power) to suppress information on how to live a proper life. Anyway, the meds im taking, I dont believe to be bad, but that doesnt mean I can slack off, I need to do as you said it, live healthy, do my work outs, eat proper, do meditation etc.

[LukasZInk1]

Also @greatdane
I will take you up on your offer and write you, if something pops up. Thanks a lot!

Also a question: I read the post where you were suicidal or close to, so you have come along way I guess. But how are you now compared to before smoking weed? Would you say you have come through stronger? Or are you still in the process of beating PAWS/aftereffects of PAWS?

[thegreatdane]

I would say cut the meds but then again i know they probably help you a lot, and i dont wanna bring you in danger.

That is still suggestablity and when someone is struggling they may take the decision to try it. As for you assertion that mental illness can be managed in non pharmaceutical ways. Illness like schizophrenia requires meds, whereas depression maybe not so much. With regards to society wanting to control etc... why would it select certain people to do that to? Why not all of us? I'm no fan of big pharma but without certain drugs people become seriously ill. I say that as a clinical nurse specialist in mental health and have seen numerous examples and suicides because of people choosing not to take medication.

I believe anything can be cured naturally, there a plenty of people with severe scitzophernia who cured themselves through fasting, semen retention, etc. The pharma system is here to offer a short term solution and to keep a buisness going. Who own all the med schools, who own all the banks in the world, who decides what should be taught in schools, universities, how society should be set up and what knowledge should be given? The rockerfellers and rotschilds, its actual factual information. And not saying that in any aggressive way but people should seriously wake up, the human body can cure itself naturally from anything and there are plenty of methods to doing that, however mainstream studies would never fund this since it would mean the big pharmas would crash. Its a deep deep subject!

[thegreatdane]

Also @greatdane
I will take you up on your offer and write you, if something pops up. Thanks a lot!

Also a question: I read the post where you were suicidal or close to, so you have come along way I guess. But how are you now compared to before smoking weed? Would you say you have come through stronger? Or are you still in the process of beating PAWS/aftereffects of PAWS?

Its good that the meds is helping and hopefully they can keep help you, its your choice what you wanna do bro. Before smoking weed and all my life i was slightly depressed, i think i had adhd and a sensitive brain. This led me to weed addiction and porn addiction which just fried my dopamine and serotonin in the brain. PAWS was way worse than before my addictions and even during my addictions. Nowadays i rarely have bad days. I feel functional again. However after paws ended i also started exercising more, i started to be mindful about what i do in my life. Stopped porn, started exercising, started intermittent fasting and water fasting, starting researching what is not taught from our mainstream news and big pharmas. There are plenty of things we can do to heal ourselves and our brains naturally, and there is a reason why society dosent speak about it. The matrix needs to run, people need to fit into the 9-5 job and spend money that goes straight to the one world government. I know i get deep but i think it would be helpful for you to look up things that you can do to increase your well being and heal your brain. I dont believe anyone or anything is predestined to a mental illness, we can change our dna, genes and brain. Its fully possible. I feel amazing for probably the first time in my life, i can feel things again, im confident again. Its an amazing feeling truly, and if you keep staying off weed, perhaps research the things i told you and how they have saved others lives, and keep doing your great habits, improve as a human being. You will get there bro! Much love man and keep your head up. Try to accept your situation, fully surrender. Be kind to yourself man you are the best!

[tokeless]

The matrix needs to run, people need to fit into the 9-5 job and spend money that goes straight to the one world government.

You do know it's a film the matrix. . Don't you? One world government didn't stop Brexit, doesn't stop us invading other countries... why would we do that if the world was run by one government?

I dont believe anyone or anything is predestined to a mental illness.

I think you'll find there's evidence that it can be familial and people with a predisposition can develop MI with drugs, stress and other reasons.
Talking of evidence:
we can change our dna, genes and brain
You can change your DNA? That's some statement to make. Can you provide the evidence for that assertion please.

[thegreatdane]

The matrix needs to run, people need to fit into the 9-5 job and spend money that goes straight to the one world government.

You do know it's a film the matrix. . Don't you? One world government didn't stop Brexit, doesn't stop us invading other countries... why would we do that if the world was run by one government?

I dont believe anyone or anything is predestined to a mental illness.

I think you'll find there's evidence that it can be familial and people with a predisposition can develop MI with drugs, stress and other reasons.
Talking of evidence:
we can change our dna, genes and brain
You can change your DNA? That's some statement to make. Can you provide the evidence for that assertion please.

Lots of love my friend, always good to see sheeps who want to learn Fall cabal i would recommend you watch, out of shadows too. Dolores cannon who channels the subconscious of people and basically can make the body heal everything. QHHT sessions. Subliminal messsages and how our thoughts change our reality.