7.5 months now

#60

Postby Winzu » Wed Sep 15, 2021 3:35 pm

iHatePaws94 wrote:Hey man thanks for sharing your story. I'm at almost 9 months and am still having a difficult time. It's encouraging to know that these next few months might be a turning point for me. But yeah I agree that this suffering is turning me into a compassionate person as well. I always viewed people with anxiety problems and depression as weak. But now that I've been there myself I feel like a POS for ever thinking that. But yeah I've been trying to train myself into seeing paws as a blessing not a curse. At then end of this thing we're all going to be stronger people because of it. I've heard from people who have recovered that nothing bothers them anymore because nothing is anywhere near as bad as paws. They view every day with good health as a blessing and stop taking things for granted. When faced with adversity we can either let it destroy us or we can get stronger and evolve into better versions of ourselves. Glad you been feeling better! Keep up the fight and keep us posted on your progress.


I am sorry for not responding earlier, didn’t see your message earlier. Month 9 to 12 definitely had major improvements!

It’s cool that you say you thought people with anxiety were just weak, I had exactly the same issue. However, even though I rationally know that people with anxiety aren’t just weak, and that I should show compassion to them. I still catch myself naturally being impatient and ridiculous to them (when feeling great myself).

I think it is in our primal nature to dislike stressed and fearful people. As these personality traits are often associated with weaker people at the bottom of the social hierarchy. Weak men didn’t provide as much resources or protection as strong men while however greatly increasing the chances of
mistakes regarding the group’s survival.

I think it is unnecessary to act on that irritation, but the thought of it is natural I believe.

I totally agree with you on PAWS being a blessing. In the end, what would have happened if we did not get punished for our mistakes. It would only led us to making more mistakes. In my case, I would never have quit the use of substances so drastically without consequences like this. In a way I am glad that I learned the value of health so early in life. Nothing will be worse than PAWS. I hope you too have good luck in your recovery brother!
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#61

Postby 9monthquit » Sat Oct 02, 2021 7:41 pm

@Winzu

Long time! I feel your frustration, feeling horrible after a year can be disheartening. I'm in a pretty heavy wave too at the moment, but I'm pushing through, and I bet you are too.

I totally agree with this sentiment and mindset: PAWS is a blessing. I'm (and I believe you are too) only in my early 20s. Heck, covid started when I was 19! Looking back now, life was so easy up to that point. We abused our health in many ways, eating whatever we want, drugs, no exercise, staying up all night, the list goes on.

And then PAWS hit. I don't know if it was the case for everyone else here, but I personally hit rock bottom. And at such a young age, it's rough, but I think it's an amazing lesson in life. I will NEVER make this mistake again. Drugs (including alcohol) are totally out for the rest of my life. I'm going to be very careful about lifestyle choices I make from here. But I'm also really excited about our tolerance after PAWS: "Nothing will be worse than PAWS." We have a lot of experiences ahead of us, but I have a strong feeling nothing will be harder than this journey. We are becoming tough in ways we never expected, and it's going to show :) I hope you guys are doing well in your journey!

Btw: @Winzu I saw your PM, but I can't reply, it says I'm still a new member and need to post more (??)
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