1,5 years and relapse

Postby paylxsav » Sat Sep 18, 2021 12:44 am

Hey guys, first of all THANKS everyone for sharing your stories in here it helped me a lot on my worst days. So, I started smoking weed when I was 18 yo, smoked HEAVILY and really high thc hash for 2 long years. When I tell you heavy smoke, I was smoking +10 fat joints a day everyday. In April 2020 I finally felt that this addiction was taking control of my life and decided to quit. The first 3-4 months were BRUTAL, u can name every withdrawal symptom, I had it. I discovered this forum on the 2nd month, and honestly it was almost life saving. The months kept passing by and the symptoms were vanishing really slow. I will do a timeline

1-3 Months: Every single symptom I had it, physically and psicollogicaly.
4-8months: I had hard anxiety and depression, brain fog. And some more which I can’t remember the name right now lol.
8-12: all of the symptoms above but less frequently, I could live my life and do the things, even tho I still had bad days.
1 year- 1 year and 4 months: I’m finally 95% good, I took control of my life and my emotions, and I’m way more grateful to live and enjoy little things.

So today, I didn’t know, but my brother in law, told to me to smoke a cigar with him, and since I smoke cigars I accepted. Little I know that he removed all of tobacco and put weed in there. I took 3 puffs, noticed the smell and instantly stoped, because I don’t want to get involved with weed again and I dont feel the urge.
My problem now is that, if It triggered paws again and if I’m going to go trough paws. I know the majority of the cases, people get paws because they abused drugs for several months / years. But I’m a little afraid now, I was so proud of what I achieved and went through, and I don’t know if this retarded my paws process and I need to do it all over again. Part of me says, paws is when people abuse, in this case, weed and the brain/body needs to readjust so I don’t have to go trough it again because I only took 2-3 puffs. But the other part of me, is a bit scared because I was almost at a year a half and I relapsed when it wasn’t my fault.

Sorry, English isn’t my main language.

If you need help or have any question don’t hesitate,
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Postby paylxsav » Sat Sep 18, 2021 1:21 am

Ok, now that I’m more relaxed and not so nervous. I can say that I’m sure this won’t affect my streak since I only took 2 small puffs( didn’t even feel high) and I’m not addicted anymore. So my path is still going on and my objective is to reach 2 years. Anyways if you have any questions or need some help I’m right here
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Postby Winzu » Sat Sep 18, 2021 1:57 pm

Don’t worry about it, some of my friends smoked a few times and still feel on the same journey of PAWS afterwards. Your brother is a real douchebag though.
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Postby 1yearPAWS » Sat Sep 18, 2021 3:18 pm

I've also heard of someone do this and it not affecting their PAWS journey. I think if you did something like this early on it would have had a greater impact than doing it at 16 months when you are 95% cured. Thank you for sharing your story though, I'm at a year now and relate to your timeline completely. I really hope I have a similar 1 year - 1year and 4 months!
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