Suicide note

Postby Zuriel » Tue Oct 11, 2011 5:39 pm

So I wrote this suicide note for a friend...She told me it was very sad...I did not write it to be sad...I was thinking this is how a suicidal person would feel after they ended things but were not able to put it into words anylonger...anyone else ever read or write a suicide note just because? If so, what was it like? This is what I wrote...


...I did not sleep for crap in the final days
...I became extremely tired near the end
...not just tired of being awake - but tired of being alive
...I was sick and tired of being judged for just being
...no-one really knew me or ever cared enough to find out who I really was
...as long as I served their purpose, that is all they were interested in
...everyone assumed they knew me, no-one really did
...I truly wished things would've been different
...I truly wished I had learned earlier to live without fear
...I truly wished I could have known what it felt like to be loved
...Real love
...I departed with sorrow in my heart and fear in my mind
...but love remained in my soul
...love for all others struggling to conquer the things I couldn't
...didn't
...peace
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Postby givingup » Tue Oct 11, 2011 6:44 pm

Zuriel wrote:So I wrote this suicide note for a friend...She told me it was very sad...I did not write it to be sad...I was thinking this is how a suicidal person would feel after they ended things but were not able to put it into words anylonger...anyone else ever read or write a suicide note just because? If so, what was it like? This is what I wrote...


...I did not sleep for crap in the final days
...I became extremely tired near the end
...not just tired of being awake - but tired of being alive
...I was sick and tired of being judged for just being
...no-one really knew me or ever cared enough to find out who I really was
...as long as I served their purpose, that is all they were interested in
...everyone assumed they knew me, no-one really did
...I truly wished things would've been different
...I truly wished I had learned earlier to live without fear
...I truly wished I could have known what it felt like to be loved
...Real love
...I departed with sorrow in my heart and fear in my mind
...but love remained in my soul
...love for all others struggling to conquer the things I couldn't
...didn't
...peace


Never left a suicide note . Tbh at that point there was no point .
There is a point in getting back up again , however , and that is because you can .
G.
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Postby lastflower161 » Mon Oct 17, 2011 2:25 am

i have written a suicide note, it was also my will, everything i felt, so others would understand what i was doing would be for the best, im not sure what to believe now, but my note was full of pain and sorrow, i red to myself sometimes, to remained me of my strength that im still here, yet i just cry.. its so sad, it feels like my heart is bleeding when i read it..

your note was also sad, whats even sadder is many feel that way..
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Postby Joobles » Fri Nov 11, 2011 12:53 pm

I've written suicide notes. They were full of pain and things that I would never want anybody to read if I were still here. I didn't keep any of them for fear that someone would find them. Reading them again at a later date felt like i was reading someone elses writing. I felt so sorry for that poor, wretched person.
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Postby Candid » Sun Nov 13, 2011 4:12 am

Joobles wrote:Reading them again at a later date felt like i was reading someone elses writing. I felt so sorry for that poor, wretched person.
That's where Eckardt Tolle started: realising there was a self (1) he couldn't live with as well as a self (2) that couldn't live with self 1. This distancing from self seems to be a very powerful mechanism for change. Well, it didn't do Tolle any harm! It's also a theme in Wayne Dyer's There's a Spiritual Solution to Every Problem.
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Postby Zuriel » Sun Nov 13, 2011 8:56 pm

Candid...you and I are sorta in sync! I look forward to reading a great many of your responses to people because I agree with what you say!
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