Interesting story...5months no weed.

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Postby tokes » Thu Dec 27, 2018 1:34 am

In 2014 I was still smoking - and most of the symptoms of PAWs kind of dissappear when you are in your stoned bliss. However, my first quit in 2015 after 8 years of smoking were as follows:

Completely dysfunctional. Unable to socialise or communicate in any proper fashion despite previously being a fairly upbeat - conversational style person. Inability to think quickly or when I was able to - it wasn't in a clear linear fashion - it was all squashed and jumbled and I use to describe it as having some kind of blockade between my brain neurons or synapses. I guess the term 'fried egg' may have came from that kind of feeling of being completely inoperable.

- Speech was slow and things I said were deemed 'out there' or not based on topic/with flow of the conversation. This made me generally avoid conversation as I felt I did not have the ability to keep up especially with quick wit or banter.

- I had depersonalisation in the sense that I was never really there, I was just inside of myself operating this human vehicle as best as I could. I was fired within a month for every job I had and my human interaction was crap. I too would sometimes forget where I was or who I was. Sometimes I could close my eyes for a minute and while they were closed have no idea where I would be if I'd opened them.

Long term memory was fine - but short term memory wasn't great. I could easily forget very important dates, meetings or events that required attention. Everyone forgets things but this was beyond the scope of normal as instead of merely forgetting....it would be out of my mind completely as if i'd never knew about it in the first place, which was scary.

My first quit lasted 1.5 years and this second quit is about to enter the 10th month. All of the aforementioned symptoms have disappeared now with some introvert-like traits still lingering which I believe I have developed - in part due to this humbling experience - but also due to my experiences with people and human interactions which has led me to focus more inward than outward, which I am actually content with. I have found people find that trait about me different and interesting.

However, lack of concentration or an inability to focus is something that lingers around. I remember in my high school/college days being a bit all over the place and very energetic..but if it came down to a task i could focus that energy immensely and could completely zone in on what needed to be done. I am currently working and studying and I have to write alot of essays and revise alot. I end up writing a sentence then going on google to find a reference then end up on an unrelated website and spend 20 minutes on it completely forgetting I have an essay to write; this happens for revision also. It's a bit of a nightmare but when I think to the plethora of shitty symptoms I had..its hardly something to moan about. Some people have mentioned that it can take up to 2 years to fully recover entirely. So i believe concerntration - for me - could just be one of those things that comes back around and hones itself back into my psyche after not using MJ for 1.5 years or more and training myself to concerntrate better. Medication like adderall or something would be the last thing on planet earth i would take. F all that.

Any other Q's let me know bro

Peace
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Postby tokes » Wed Jan 02, 2019 9:03 pm

month 10 - still suffer from heart palpitations and odd bouts of physical anxiety (rarely accompanied by mental anxiety such as worrisome thoughts)
The most irritating PAWs symptom that lingers is heart palpitations that have lingered ever since my first panic attack. Being in a constant state of 'panic' which increases cortisol and adrenaline levels effects the hearts rhythm. When i stopped smoking cigarettes for 2 weeks (i just started again smh) they disappeared almost completely. I don't feel like I am in a constant sake of panic nor am I mentally troubled, I am still fairly chilled calm and collected but my body does feel anxious and panicky. This is signalled by heart palpitations, heavy breathing...and just a generaly bodily feeling of unease. I thought this stemmed from heart problems but I've had it checked and there isn't an issue...despite me believing there was.
I wish for higher mental sharpness which i believe can be trained and honed in on.

Hope every is well, message me if you have any questions

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Postby ashthewarrior7 » Thu Jan 03, 2019 1:01 am

i don't know much about cigarettes during PAWS but I do know that smoking hookah/sisha did set off a wave of PAWS just like alcohol and coffee does. the wave is different and not that obvious with hookah/sisha but very much there. So since cigs and hookah have a lot of common ingredients, they could be responsible for the PAWS symptoms being aggravated.
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