Hello all,
My story is similar to a lot of you guys here. I smoked weed from 18 to 25 and when I was 21 I develop a chronic depressive disorder triggered by weed. I was sure that was going to live that way forever. The main symptons I had was:
- Constant crying out of nowhere
- Chronic insomnia (that was so debilitating)
- Problems with relationships with my family and girlfriends (mostly because of my depression)
- Self Esteem problem
- Social Anxiety
- Generalized Anxiety.
- Anhedonia
So, about 15 months ago I decided that was time to stop smoking weed, since all the medications that I took it for depression wasnt doing anything for me. I took 11 differents medications and none of them helped me. I also went to therapy countless times and it also didn´t helped me. My problem was/is purely biological.
I still can´t say that i´m 100% but my sleep is better, my self esteem is better than ever, and I never thought I could have the social skills that weed "prevent" me to know. Of course I have a fear that i´m not going to recover 100% and feel like a "normal" person again, but I think that I just have to be patient with that.
I still have a lot of symptons like lack of motivation, tired a lot of the time and difficult falling asleep. But now I KNOW that I can get better, I just have to be patient and wait for the better. I´m dating this amazing girl and hoping to feel even better next year.
I would like to give special thanks to Olskoolru that always reply to my e-mails about my concerns about PAWS.
Sorry for my english, is not my native language.
I made this thread so I can come back here when things are not quite good (like today) and remembering that i´m slowly progressing.