Schizophrenia from PAWS - 6 weeks of hell

Postby richardmj » Sun Mar 27, 2016 4:04 am

About 3 1/2 months ago I started marijuana withdrawal. I got through about 2 months of it until I relapsed. And this time around is worse.The symptoms are completely different. I am having schizophria/OCD. I can't stop thinking about "what if someone cut my my penis" ? It sounds so f***ing stupid I know! It frustrates me.

I know I should not be worried about that, but it's already got been established as an obsession, and it's like I HAVE to think about it. I know a lot of people have repetitive thoughts, so maybe that's part of it..

I guess what I want to know is has anyone had schizophrenia or OCD like mine from WD? And any advice on how to handle it? I'm lost and one way I cope is by blaming it on god. I don't even know if there is a god, but being angry at him really helps. Especially since I'm 15 and this past year has been the worst of my life.
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Postby Davinci » Sun Mar 27, 2016 1:34 pm

I'm sorry that you are suffering.

I never heard anyone here having schizophrenia symptons, can you elaborate about this? What symptons do you think it's from schizophrenia?
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Postby Pisuanakin » Sun Mar 27, 2016 8:23 pm

Hi man, you ll be fine. Just lay off drugs / alcohol / cigarettes for at least 6 months.

If you would have schizophrenia, you wouldn't know. The simple fact that you are questioning makes it pretty sure that you dont. What you have though, is anxiety.

Check this link to calm your tits. calmclinic.c om /anxiety/ not-schizophrenia (remove spaces)
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Postby richardmj » Mon Mar 28, 2016 6:35 pm

Yeah.. its probably just OCD because everything else is perfectly fine. I mean Im not really depressed or fatigued. I sleep fine. Im eating fine. Im happy. Im social.

I really dont get why Im still having this one obsession. Out of the 6 weeks, Ive had 2 where I would only think about the obsession occassionally. I wish I could stop thinking about it permanently.. :(
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Postby Tomoli » Sun Feb 12, 2017 1:10 am

i can relate to this.. i had/have a similar thing happening to me. I was constantly thinking about jumping out of the window for 2 weeks straight. I'm not suicidal but this thought made me believe it at some point. I was cutting vegetables with a big knife and was scared that i would jump... i mean, i could just have used the knife, but didn't think about that. It was only the window or the balcony. The other symptoms like anxiety, depressive state, insomnia etc. really made it worse in my head, because i started to think “oh my god, i really am suicidal“. after ca. 2 weeks it changed and i was afraid of death itself and i thought about it for a good week. another day i thought i was a pedophile, because i saw a documentary about it and it made me nervous and there was a thought like “what if you...?“ in my head.Then i also thoght that i was shizophrenic, because of these thoughts. I guess it can happen and is normal in PAWS. Well, i do hope it, because i still do feel miserable and still am affraid of my thoughts. But the moments, i don't think about any of this, get longer. An advice i can give you is to accept you have those thoughts and say to yourself “ok, i have these thoughts but i dont need them“, important is that you stop being affraid of them, because if you react with fear your mind will find it “funny“ to do it again and again (i know, it seems impossible)

Stay strong
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Postby Blazedout420 » Mon Feb 13, 2017 11:58 am

Hey Tomoli,

I can relate to you man. During initial withdrawal it was health anxiety - MS, ALS, brain tumour you name it I had it, I then felt OK and smoked again but started experience DPDR which made me feel worse so quit for good. Next came intrusive harm thoughts, fear of schizophrenia and all other mental illnesses, like yourself I saw a film about a serial killer/sex offenders and turned my thoughts towards myself, what if I did that etc I also got HOCD, ROCD and again like yourself after reading in the news about pedophiles and some child sex abuse scandals I experienced POCD! Never have I felt or thought anything like this before I quit smoking but the anxiety was so intense I began to believe my own irrational thoughts, when in reality all the things I obsessed over were things previously that made me feel sick and would be totally out of character for me. Frightening really, thankfully it's all starting to pass now and I am feeling more like myself every day.
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Postby Soberchic » Mon Feb 13, 2017 6:32 pm

Totally understand this schizo land for the first 2 mos and then mild symptoms of it after. I was afraid to go to sleep in the first month i thought the devil or demons were after me and i couldnt stop thinking about it..MY mind was playing tricks on me like i was seeing this lady driving and all of a sudden her eyebrows were so arched she looks so evil it scared thr hell out of me. I kept have hallucinations for month but it didnt start till 10 days after i quit..Panic attacks and anxiety the first month n a half. I have 5 1/2mo. And i dont have any of those symptoms anymore..i deal with other withdrawal or paws symptoms but not that. IT is very scary at first because i thought the weed was covering up a serious mental illness..Ive been in recovering for almost 5 yrs from alcohol opiates benzos and crack and i never thought that weed could do this, i actually was very ignorant in thinking ive been thru the worst withdrawals so this will be a piece of cake.Nope, boy did i prove me wrong wrong wrong!!!!!!! i smoke for 18years very heavy every day. A drug is a drug is a drug, if your heavily addicted to anything you will get withdrawals and everyone is different from what they experience..hang in there one day at a time..
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Postby uniqueason » Mon Dec 09, 2019 7:50 am

How are you now richard need help im pretty much in the same situation as you my boy
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Postby Head in loud » Sat Dec 14, 2019 1:53 am

uniqueason wrote:How are you now richard need help im pretty much in the same situation as you my boy

It is pretty common PAW, is 17 and half months in and still get it once in a while. Although it is not as bad as before. Just hang in there, eat healthy, exercise, do meditation and try to get good sleep.
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Postby uniqueason » Sat Dec 28, 2019 7:06 am

how ryou feeling richard pretty much have the same obession thinkin i may go crazy and sh**
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Postby uniqueason » Fri Jan 10, 2020 12:10 pm

Thanks for the answer head in loud
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