19 months without weed

Postby fiveweeks » Tue Apr 05, 2016 3:20 am

Ok, I struggled a bit to come back here and tell my story because during the 10-11 months I looked this forum minute by minute trying to find answers to what was happening to me. But I promised myself that I would return.

I will summarize my story, but if you are interested, you can search my old posts.

I smoked marijuana for three years often (1-3 times a day), the first time I smoked was 18, but started smoking with frequency 3 years later with 21. I was at a frantic pace smoking pot all days and was convinced that would be part of my life for a long time if not for the rest of my life, for me there were no problems in that since I could work and smoke only one joint to sleep... After 3 years of smoking, a close friend who was also at a frantic pace snapped with serious psychological problems she was really unrecognizable. And I was very frightened by this, so I decided to stop by "a while" but as soon as I stopped the effects of abstinence have started, something really impressive: Anxiety VERY STRONG, lack of sleep, severe depression, severe depersonalization, stomach pains, some suicidal thoughts, paranoia, lack of appetite and thus worsened during the months that followed... For a long time, every day was a challenge, I started to blame me for everything I did in my life, of all wrong attitudes I had and even by some certain attitudes, I really got no head, I thought I ruined my life forever, I was horrified... Severe PAWS happened to me and you might think "you smoked for only three years, it it is very little" but I ask you - if you eat McDonald's for 3 years EVERY SINGLE day your body will not react? If you take a medication or even practice a sport for 3 years your body and mind will not react? I know there are many poeple here who have smoked for much longer, but each person responds in a way and time really does not justify much in this situation.

Anyway, during the PAWS I found this blessed forum that was the only place where I met people and found the answers to what was happening to me, every day I read the stories of the old and new members who were part of it, in the most terrible moments the only output was read by many times the story of those who were already on the other side of this turbulent river, if you are going through these moments look for: olskoolru, bigsizie, amoeba, justin92, shodan and others. It helped me to have faith that one day all this would go away and I would return to normal.

How do I feel today? The brain after being accustomed to a daily injection of cannabinoids takes some time to return to normal, it is chemical and should return to the old balance, it is as if we had to learn to live, feel, sleep, eat again... this is a painful process. So after all these months of struggle, today I can say I feel good, life is more easier, many of the symptoms have passed and some even re-appear at longer intervals, but I feel that soon it will no longer bother me. I`m a new people, but I fell normal in the most of time again...

Tips and tools that have helped me:

1. Talk to someone who understand and support you, say whatever is going through your head doesn`t matter how absurd it may be. I had that [quote]opportunity with my mother and my girlfriend, they were the key to me.

2. Have faith in something bigger. I am a Christian, then pray to God and Jesus was essential, it was my personal experience, but does not mean that you must believe in God and Jesus, something greater for you can be anything.

3. Practice sports, fitness, biking, jogging, swimming anything. I did not want to leave my home, I was afraid, did not want to go to the gym, but I forced myself to do this, I bought a bike and started pedaling... it helps to relax, it helps to have sleep, distracts and produces good things in the brain.

4. Read this forum, here's a lot of information and stories of motivation.


DO NOT GIVE UP!!! The last 19 months have been the hardest of my life but today I am very grateful for having not given up ... This will pass, have faith.

I hope to get help with this post, there's a lot I wanted to talk about, I planned and waited so long for this day but I can not write because I am confused by so much thing in my head and my English is not the best.

I want to make my gratitude and a very special hug to my friends: johnrlivingston and olskoolru... I love you guys, helped me a lot to get here and we will continue together in this fight.

Please, hang in there... If I can, you can also.

Jesus bless you all~ :D
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Postby lmcbride » Tue Apr 05, 2016 4:57 am

This is great to read Fiveweeks. I remember your posts in Johnrlivingstons quit journal. I posted a bit in there as well when I was early in my quit and really struggling.

I'm almost 8 months weed free and life is great. I still have some bad days, but I recognize PAWS symptoms for what they are and am able to get passed them pretty quickly now.

I'm glad to hear you're doing better now. There is light at the end of the tunnel :)
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Postby netty28661 » Wed Apr 13, 2016 10:41 am

Hi fiveweeks, fantastic to hear how well you've done. Yes it's hard (VERY HARD!) but isn't it worthwhile having your life back?

You'll still see improvement as you move on.You did the right thing with exercise & having a belief in something really helps, in your case it was religion & prayer. I don't follow a religion but I do meditate most days. This combination helps the anxiety & stress most of us in life experience.

By the way your English is excellent but I can understand how hard it must be for you to write how you feel in a foreign language.

Onward & upward
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Postby Jamie514 » Wed Apr 13, 2016 1:55 pm

Congrats for that great achievement! And thanks for giving out these tips, to quit weed consumption I believe such tips will be effective for people.
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Postby Experiment1996 » Sat May 29, 2021 9:28 am

How is it now? When did you recover 100 % ?
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Postby PowerOfMyMind » Tue Jun 22, 2021 3:08 pm

Well done on your journey in sobriety. How are you now that some years have passed?
Im coming up to 11 months and definitely feel much better but still have bad days. My mornings are definitely the worst as i get the morning fear and anxiety which i think is the stress hormone cortisol. Its a bumma. Stress definitely seems to bring on more symptoms though.
Im also taking Effexor and SNRI antidepressant which is definitely helping with anxiety. Its going to be a slow wean off of that though once im ready :roll:
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Postby MMJnomo » Sat Jun 26, 2021 9:26 pm

Fiveweeks would you please post an update if you see this? I am five months clean and struggling mightily right now with PAWS. My worse symptoms are dizzy/woozy feeling, feeling off balance like I am going to fall, severe brain fog, and feeling like I am trembling all over. Can anyone relate to this? I really need encouragement.
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